Exams...

exams exams exams... exams are here again... sacrifice are to be made again... I really really miss him a lot but we have to work for our future... It's sad but we have to do what we need to do... guess sacrifice never ends... but I know it's worth it...

Cross finger... I only have one week left for my JLPT exam.. wish me luck XD~

Take care guys.. hope you guys have a great day ahead.. ^_~

Sacrifices... a worth while...

Many things have happen to me.... since I graduated at College, work, life, and until now... There are things that I do for good, but why it never seen by other people? It kept bury always... Does it have to be always that way? Or it's just not on the right time? -- these are the question that I usually question myself that left without an answer... but now I learn about it... making sacrifices don't need answer all the time... and making sacrifices don't need to see or feel by all the people because you cannot please all the people around you... Well, facing the fact, although it really hurt me but I have nothing to do with it, that is the Law of Life, you can't take it? live with it.. but I also realize that making sacrifices needs time and it's a worth while...

Ain't that enough?

it's Monday again, and my weekend are filled with sadness that I cannot avoid... It always occur on my mind no matter what I do to forget it. Even though that I do not want to think about it, it always pop on my mind. I know only ourself can understand the feeling of our gut. But when you raise it to the person that you are concern, ain't that enough? ain't that enough that you are concern to them? Oh well, but all that she did was laugh, glad I get use to people not get serious on me. well, I just hope that I will ate my words and guts, if I am wrong. But I also found out that recently it's not only me who have that not good feeling, but also my parents -_-; But oh well, I am just the youngest of all in the house. I cannot do anything, even I state my feelings and ideas. Why? Can the guy support her future? Can the guy support her a good life? and Can the guy support her till the end? even his family? He doesn't even have a stable job right now? I didn't mean that he is really jobless but his job is on and off. How can a guy like that support his girlfriend or wife in the future right? I know I am too early to judge a him like that, but my mind keep on telling me that something is really wrong with that guy... this already bugging me for how many days. I try to open to him but it still didn't work. If he can prove to me, all of my questions and doubts I will accept him, and I will accept that my guts, and intuition are wrong. BUT~ if he fails, I will be the first one in the family who will confront him.

Today at work, I don't quite work because I quite catch cold because of the weather change @_@ glad I didn't have cough, har har har... and my head near going to freeze because it's cold her in the office >.> and hope I can resume work normally tomorrow. ho ho ho~ but even that happens I am still happy at the office... :p Well, till here, hope you guys have a great day~

Get use to...

In life, we learn a lot of lesson as we grow up... and I am really glad that I am get used to it... specially people not get serious on me when I talk something quite important. Well, that maybe not important to other people but hey~ it's important to me... Glad I get use to that because I remember way back when I am not get use to it, I get angry to myself because people don't take me seriously... And I also learn that in life, you should always be ready for anything, I MEAN "anything"

November Times...

hello November.. belated Happy Holloween :D November November November, only few days pass and it will December loh~ and on November 19, 2006 I'll be 6months working at Primer loh~ :D Hope I can be regular loh~ :D and hope I don't get my 3 days suspension because of having 6 lates TT_TT because last month I got late for 6 times because of tardiness, a.k.a. tamad :p

Well, only 2days to count sweet angel and I will be 8months loh~ days really past so fast, it's like just few days ago the we are official and now we are 8months loh~ I hope this continue till we get old :D

As for work, well... I get more project lah~ and hope I can finish these in November so I can relax in December and have a nice Christmas break...

I just realize recently that in life, we should make wise decision for our future. And also I realize that I can make more sacrifice for my love one.... that I thought I can't guess when you really love your loveones you can do everything... althought quite feel sad because you have to sacrifice your feelings and what you need to do just for your loveone...

Lesson Learned...

Today a lot things had happen... from very early morning up to work -_-; days sometimes really start bad, hope in the end of the day it will turn out good... Today, I also learn that if two people have the same attitude... one should let the way, but what if the other puts you on rever psychology? Because for me, when someone do that I change my decision immediately but why other people refuse suddenly? I didn't do that to make them second thought of what they want to do... but why that always happen? I adjust for other people but how come they do not understand that? I just hope one day they could understand me...

The Gift...

Recently I cook food for my sweet angel.. but not only for him but also for his family... why? because I wanted to... My family knows sweet angel already... and in return I cook food for his family in order to know me.. and that is the first step I made.. cooking food for his family is just a little things that I've done... I just done it twice, so it's not a big deal for me... just a things that I've done to know me... then yesterday, I gone to his house and I receive a gift from his mother... he gave me the gift because his mother gave it to him and told him that she want to gave me the gift... I was shock but I was also happy but I was very shy to receive the gift because I didn't do big things to give me that gift...

Well, right now when I think about that... I just thank you her for the gift and like sweet angel said, 'maybe this is the first step?'

^^v have a nice day guys ;)

October Fest ~

well, it's October loh~ and days really past SO fast @_@ and we are already 7 months loh~ I am very happy with my sweet angel... There are so many things happen in 7 months and I am very happy and contented with my life now~

Recently, I have a friend having problem with his gf little sister... well, can't tell here because the story is long :D I just really with hope that my advise help him a lot~ really sad when I heard his story... and I hope I was there to help him too....

sorry just post now.. and it's been two weeks in draft mode XD~

Happy October Fest guys~ :D

for almost 3 days...

hello... guess you guys already heard about the signal no.3 typhoon here in the Philippines... >.<

for almost 3 days we do not have electricity and telephone line... so, what we do is stay at home on thursday and friday and resume work at saturday @_@ and now, I just realize that I do not get use to work at saturday schedules again... -o- guess, working back on normal hours have it's disadvantage too... 'cause you will have a hard time in adjusting your schedule loh~

And our nihongo class a while ago, got cancelled so I go swimming with my friend and kareshi because I do not want to go to office without taking a bath @_@ and now working at the office I don't feel like working and all of us here don't feel like working... -0-

Today is also the last day of September, hope tomorrow is a good day for all... For October will be entering :) Have a great day to all the people out there :)

Happy...

As for September 04, 2006, we are officially 6months... can you imagine that? Days really past so fast talaga~ but before that... you gave me the most specialy gift I've ever receive in my life... that was September 02, 2006... I wasn't expecting that, and I am very very happy and very very thank you that you gave me that... I really do not know what to say when I saw that in that day because I was very very happy and my tears almost fall down on my cheeks... and another thing that I am very happy is that we are already 6months loh~ I never regret on all the things that we've been through and I am very happy being with you... I wish our stay longer more and we'll work it out~ Love you my dearest sweet angel of my life~

Well, two week left for me to coupe up my study in nihonggo~ because on September 30, 2006 is our midterm loh~ hope I pass ,,x,,>.<,,x... lets have a cross finger~

Well, work here at the office is getting hectic every now and then loh~ I wish I can catch up in updating my blog~

September...

Welcome September; oh well, late a work -_-; I just hope that I won't be late for the whole month XD~ and yet still have the same busy days doing IT stuff... tomorrow have a lot of schedule to deal with, namely my nihongo class, our company seminar and going to RP for my friends new open shop... well, I just hope that I hope get haggard by that :P

Last day of the month...

Today, August 31, 2006; yet another last day of the month... listening to my favorite BoA Kwon Song while writing this blog...

Well, all I can say is yet another busy day, go here and there with IT stuff rolling XD~ I haven't review my Nihongo because of busy days here at the office... hope I can coupe up when I get home tonight =) And as for my dearest sweet angel, Always remember that I am always here for you no matter what happens...

August 25...

last friday of the month... days really pass by sooo fast... at last my application for part time barista at starbucks have reply although I still have to wait for six weeks at least I have a reply from them ^_~ Just finish writing my end of the day report and say I'm already working for 3months XD~ and I still enjoy working here although that sometimes I have rush projects but still I getto enjoy the environment here... and as for my Japanese language lesson, I must study harder this time because Elementary 3 is much harder than Elementary 1 and 2 and I cannot just pass the exam by luck or by chance I must do it... so wish me luck XD~

August...

yet another month have passed away... days really pass so fast and I still haven't done anything much. These days I've been quite busy because of testing and making reports... I've done my best and I hope it does change something ^_^

I want to greet uber belated happy 26th birthday to my sweetest angel~ sorry if I just get to greet you now because I was really really busy '>.<' well, still I greet you in personal in that day :)

Welcome month of August, wish I can do lot more in this month aside from being busy on my work =)

A Night to remember. . .

It was July 16, 2006; from manila we go to sucat and back to manila... that was the farthest place I travel with you... and it hit 12hours that we're together. We both meet new friends and we are happy to meet them. And I'm also happy because I am with you...

In the car, that what we have that is the most beautiful memory thatI'll never forget... and I will tell you once again that I never regret all the things I've done.

I love you very very much and I'll love you till the end

A Promise Made...

In my life, living for 23 years 5months and 17days... a lots of things happend. Sad memories, happy memories, and pain memories. I've felt all of it... but still I live. Right now, I have this friend of mine.. he's feeling the most painful in his life recently, that never let me(us) know... know why? because he is my(our) sensei... and facing the fact, I do not have the right to know everything happening in hislife... but oh well, masyado akong pakialamera kasi XD~ but true to tell I was very concern when I know that was happening to him. The reason why I felt that way because I not only treat him as my sensei but also as watashi nga tomodachi desu.

July 08, 2006. Today I have this Nihongo exam and I am facing this challenge. a lot of people is supporting me one of them are my parents, sweet angel and my friends =) and I promise thatI will try my very very best to PASS this exam because I do not what to disappoint the people who are giving me the full support and love. And also I do not want to waste sensei Juntaro teaching... And this is a Promise that I will made...

:: july 08 2006 ::

Insight....

of all the things that had happen to us... I Thank you for not giving me up that easily and thank you for always be on my side.. and Thank you for coming to my life..

I also want to let you know that I also won't give you up easily and I will always be at your side when you need me... I never did know that you think that way... Letting me go? I really never do think of that you thought of that.. but I'm sorry to tell you that I do not agree. Even if that happens, I will wait for you no matter how long it will take me, I rather take all the pain challenges than easily giving you up and letting you go.. Remember this, I LoVe you "so" much and I will always love you till the end...

LoVe You So much my sweetest dearest angel...

sorry...

I know I'm such a fool but I do really care and love you... that's why I kept some of the feelings for myself because I do not want you to worry about me. Hope you forgive me on what I've done...

Actually, it's not about boundaries issue... because I don't let that keep our way... It's just that, I think hindi pa tlga maayos ang buhay ko... you've done so much for me and ayan, ganyan pa rin ako... >.< I am really sorry... sometimes ang gulo ko pa rin and you've been so nice to me pa rin... I hope mapantayan ko yung mga ginawa mo...

I LoVe YoU "SO" much and I will LoVe you till the end...

Everything just happend....

For two days (11th&12th June) we've been together and the feeling of I miss you and love you is more than before . . . Things just happen unexpectedly, I am happy because we're together.... having you in my life I have nothing ask for more..

My friend once told me that when I found the one, the more days past the stronger my love will be to that right now... and yes, she's right... I miss you more and I love you more when days are passing by... not only you will build this relationship but I will help you to build it...

I thank you for everything you've done for me... having long patience waiting for me to adjust and everything... this time, I will do my thing as your dear angel... love you and care you with all I can and with all my life... I will always be by your side when you need me... the things that you didn't felt when you were young, I know I have nothing to do with it anymore but now I found you I will fill my love in your life and fill the things that you never felt before... I cannot change the past but I will do everything I can to make you feel loved and happy now in present and until the future...

I know it's too early to say but I want to say this.... when I am in your arms I feel secure and loved... and I feel that we are as one... I love you very much my dearest sweetest angel of my life

Unexpected. . .

Yesterday was our special day and it's already our 3rd Monthsary I really never expected it... our love grew stronger and stronger.... I don't know what to do when I'm without you.... and I really do not know what will happen to me when I haven't met you... guess the long life wait is a worth waiting... and..

Guess in life, Expect the Unexpected... ^^v

Love you my dearest sweetest angel of my life...