Updates + Vacation

For Updates : I got my laptop last Saturday but I get to use it just yesterday 'cause I setup our network connection here at home and I also install some software for my laptop to be protected. Now I can get to update my site and blog every now and then when I get home. Unlike before, I need few minute time to update my site and blog after my work hours and before I go home which I fail to do and having hard time to maintain it. 'Cause I am so busy at work and all I want is to go home and rest. Now I got my laptop and now is the chance to catch up where I left off. As for vacation; Today, is my vacation day 3, but can I call this vacation? 'cause I'm cleaning my room and some trashes XD but I can say I enjoy =D it's not that I don't enjoy my work, it's just that I really need a break or I'll be the one who will break down XD as far as I can say, I am enjoying my vacation, 'cause I get to do what I want to do.

Christmas is just around the corner have you prepare your gifts to your loved ones, relatives and friends, 'cause we only have few days to go.... =)

random rant....

Well, this is just a random updates of my life, and right now I want to write this blog because certain people really so immature. Why there are some people saying they are mature but they act immature? By cannot face the fact by themselves. This really pissed me and I really hate these kind of people. Imagine, older than you and claiming that they know more or a lot than you. The worst part is that, he/she is nearly getting married, but still he/she still stay the same "what an" attitude that annoy people. I really wonder, how his/her partner treat, tolerate, or even endure this kind of attitude. And his/her attitude really annoy and affect a lot of people. Some other people told me that "let him/her be." "let he/she do what she want" "bahala siya" etc. I said "he/she will not change! because you always let him/her do what she want. this kind of person cannot change unless he/she get to collide with someone who has the same attitude as hers or who can fight back, like me or it can be other people." I know, some of you will say that, you are just digging your own grave or looking for a problem or naghahanap ng sakit ng ulo. but this kind of people should not be tolerated, 'cause they won't learn. If they won't learn anything or something by the time we collide... well, all I can say is "good luck to him/her, that when then day comes and she get to taste her own poison, she is strong enough to take it or accept it. 'Cause I can say, there are people out there who are a lot meaner than me and worst than my attitude who fight back of what he/she had done.

What is your wishlist?

Christmas is now just around the corner, let's share wishlist...

Well, my wishlist for Christmas are :

1. Hellolulu Canvas lapotop tote - this product line features cotton canvas construction with weather resistant treatment (a.k.a. water proof_ =D

2. Nikon D90


3. Ipod nano chromatic 16GB


Why these 3? As for the Hellolulu Canvas laptop tote, is for my extra bag if ever I will wash my timbuk2 laptop bag. For Nikon D90, at last, because of my friend, I found my passion, the thing I love most to do that I had almost forgotten, is taking pictures. I will invest this camera for my future. Ipod nano chromatic, a music player on the go, 'cause right now I am using my bf's mp3.

I just hope that my wish will come true =p kahit isa sa tatlo =p

What are you wishlist for this Christmas?

picture credits : all over the internet

World is so small isn't it? a.k.a. Small world

Been experiencing this, these past few months of this year, you never really expect that a person who become your friend is also a friend of your friend, a relative of your friend, a friend of your relative, a classmate of the person you know or a classmate of your relatives. And this happen a lot of times to me and I find it funny and always say "World is so small"

1. was my bf brother is my sister highschool classmate;
2. my bf brother is a friend of my friend;
3. the wife of my bf bro is the former classmate of a friend of mine;
4. my bf's cousin, kinda know my friend on their school, since my friend is 4 years higher batch.
6. the daughter of my fathers' friend, who became my sister god father on her wedding, was the former classmate of a friend of mine too;
6. is that my sister fiancee's cousin was my former co-worker

Thinking of this experience just makes me smile and I can say it's really a such a small world, who could be next? so how about you?

Will you cosplay next year? What new character will you cosplay?

These are the questions I get from some of my few friends, well my answer is "I'm sure on one event only, and that will be the OzineFest '09, but I'm not sure on the other events. But I will still attend the other events even I will not cosplay" What Character will I cosplay? I'm not going to Cosplay new character *sad but true* 'cause I have to budget my money on my other goals and that affect my future goal. And some of my friend already know what it is, if you are reading this.

If got some extra cash, I might cosplay again on 2010, yes it's so far but have to plan, 'cause I plan to cosplay a character and the costume is hard to make. So see you on the other a future events :)

Thank you.... from Rider

Hi... really sorry for very late post of thank you letter... due to hectic schedule and heavy load from my work... but as they say, 'better late than never', right... I just hope for those people who read this, they'll also appreciate it :)

My thank you :
First of all, I would like to thank you Mang Carding, my costume maker, who help me till the end. without him, my costume might not finish on time. To my photographer friend, Marc, Robin, Paul, and other photographer that Robin called XD To Jaz, who was also there, even for just a little while in visiting and accompanying me for a little while. To my bestfriend Garry who help me maintain my wig and stuffs. To hot mama Gaylee Gayle, who even just drop by in the event. And of course, last but not the least, to the special someone on my heart, my sweet angel, who accompany me from the very first till the very end of the event and also who assist me in my costime and my wig XD~ . And as for my courage, I would like to thank Marc, Robin, Garry, Jaz, Garry and my sweet angel. It's a big thing for me, for those people who visit me or just drop by for few hours, and I really appreciate it and would never forget it. Even so, I can still feel their support. As for the award, I would also like to thank the judges for choosing me as the Otakuzine Pick, I really didn't expect it. This also add up my happiness. And to the audience, I hope I had given joy to you.


My thank you :
Cosplay Mania, is the second time that I join Cosplay again. I got to see Mang Carding again and got to have picture with him. He told me "Swerte naman ang ginawan ko, dami gusto magpapicture sayo" "Swerte ako! Dahil sayo ako nagpagawa at dahil hindi niyo po ako pinabayaan" I replied and we're both happy on each other, me being his client and he being my costume maker. My friend photographer Marc, Robin, Paul was also there to take some shots of me, and of course with the other cosplayers XD~ with my surprise I didn't know that my bestbud did go also together with Chardy and his wife sistah Avic! *miss you* and also ahia Art for being there visit me too (^^,)v and also my bestfriend Garry. Of course my sweet angel there to accompany me from the very beginning till the end of the event. I was really happy when ahia art told me that I have tarp hanging in the event and I really didn't expect that I will got in the top 30. 'Cause first, I pass and register my photo quite late already and getting in the top 30 Animax Maximum Cosplay Photo Resume Contest did give me challenge because there are a lot of people who register for the Animax contest. when I register for the photo contest, I think I was in 1k+ contestant and I can also say that there are a lot of promising cosplayers who register, and I mean A LOT XD~ Aside from that, getting in the Top 2 for the Animax Maximum Cosplay Photo Resume Contest give me a real shock and an additional big happiness to me that day *kulang na lang ma-tears of joy ako XD* Even not in the top 3 of the Cosplay Mania award is okay with me, because there are a lot of promising cosplayer in 150 contestant. But! getting in the Top 2 of Animax Maximum Cosplay Photo Resume Contest is also one of the big thing for me. It gave me big impact for people to appreciate me Cosplaying Rider of Fate/Stay Night, and I am very thankful to that.

For those who voted me on the Animax Maximum Cosplay Photo Resume Contest, "THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH" without your votes, I will not be standing on that stage... Thank you very much....

From - Rider

CosplayMania 2008

Another cosplay convention I attended. The experience was great, I get to meet new cosplayer, though not their real names. Venue was quite small for this kind of event, at first there was no cosplayers area like in the AniCon, so I change my costume at the restroom. Then few hours later, the host announce that there will be a cosplayers area and I said "Buti naman meron" but then I couldn't find it at first due to over crowd people in the area. And then me and my boyfriend first saw the Baggage area XD instead of the cosplayers area, then we left few of our baggage since we got 5, then afterwards we look for the cosplayers area and glad we found it and have a seat. Cosplay catwalk is about to start at 4pm so all cosplayers were called to their notice. While waiting in the cosplayers area we cosplayers got really toasted at the area due to over crowd cosplayers. The catwalk stage was big enough for catwalk naman. Except yung sa pagakyat kasi nakaslant yun eh TT_TT and it give me a very hard time to go up and down the stage kasi nadudulas ako *:o* glad there are volunteer and marshals to help me XD As for the venue, it was over crowd for the people who visit there, kasi ang hirap maglakad lakad dahil sa sobrang sikip. I saw other cosplayer outside the Hall due to over crowd people inside the hall. That's why I only stay at one location inside the hall, which is near the Cosplay work shop =p

It was early that I changed clothes, because I was kinda tired maybe because of the event also, sikip kasi XD

anyhow, few days before this event, I was praying and hoping that I will catch up and get in the 30 contestant for the Animax Maximum Cosplay Photo Resume Contest kasi super delay na ako nagpass ng picture ko, kasi sa AniCon lang ako nagkaroon ng picture ng cosplay ko XD and that was Oct 7 *I think* During the event, at first I didn't saw my tarp so I told myself "better luck next time" then my friend told me "ey! saw you on a tarp" then I said "wow~ really?! where?!" Then he point where my tarp was hang, I was so happy because I got in, 'cause there are a lot of people who post in the Resume Contest and I got in the 30 =) 'cause there are a lot of promising cosplayers who post for the Photo Resume Contest also. When it was awarding time for the Animax Maximum Cosoplay Photo Resume Contest, ganda ng pagkakataon kasi I was just standing across the stage. As they are announcing nanonood lang ako while looking at the cute hats that the booth is selling. When they said, 2nd place goes to Resume #21, nagulat ako, I didn't expect it and syempre masaya din, sabi pa nga ng girl host, "kita ko siya kanina, asan na siya?" sabi naman ng guy host "Resume #21, where are you?" tawa nga ako habang naglalakad ako papunta sa stage. and it made me really happy na napili ako sa top 3 =) and I really want to thank all the people who vote me, dahil sa vote niyo nakapasok ako sa top 3, "maraming maraming salamat po. Thank you very very much" As the event end, it was kinda late na rin na nakuha ko tarp ko kasi tagal nila kuya T_T inaasar pa nga ako eh XD ihuli na daw ung akin... bad nila noh? XD pero still thanks.

AniCon 2008

AniCon 2008, after 5 years... I attend this kind of convention again and also I didn't expect that I will cosplay again :p Before I told myself that I'm already 25, getting old already and must be mature but guess what cosplay prove me wrong and tell me that anyone can cosplay as long as you want too. For me, masasabi kong successful ang cosplay na ito kasi portray ko yung anime character na gusto ko. And I am also happy that the audience like it. Natuwa din ako kasi napasa ko rin ang mga audience. I didn't expect that I won on the special award as the Otakuzine Pick. And this give me a confidence to cosplay again. Hmm.. sino na kaya ang next character na cosplay ko?
I would like to thank you all the people who support me in this event, for Mang Carding as my weapon and costume maker through the last minute, hindi niya ako pinabayaan. The wig that I got from Manequinne Inc. To the photographers Marc Angelo Sy and Robinson Ang. And also to my bestfriend Garry for keeping me company from time to time and help me with my hair XD and also last but not the least to by very sweet sweet angel of my life, let's call him sweetangel :p I would like to thank him for keeping me company and help me all the time. With out you guys I don't know what will happen to me.

As for the event, the venue is quite small because there are a lot of PC's there for sameple gaming and 79 invidual cosplayer and 3 group cosplayers. And there are a lot of promising cosplayers I can say. Stage is quite small but I'm not complaining, because the event is AniCon not concentrate on anime only, it also includes gaming consoles. Pictures will be uploaded as soon I got the complete collection from those two photographers of mine :) Will there be a next AniCon? I wonder.... :)

P.S.
I would also like to thank you sa award na nakuha ko as Otakuzine Pick, I really didn't expect it that I will get recognize :) syempre, happy din ako =D

Minsan ng Primer, created by DOLYA

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Batang Yagit for the Win!

My votes for the Bloggers' Choice Award for the 2008 Philippine Blog Awards goes to Batang Yagit. I don't know Batang Yagit in person, but I know he deserves this award because my best online buddy Jehzeel said so.

Are you Korean? or Japanese?

These are always the question, when people ask me. Even when the first time they see me, they always wonder if I am a Korean or Japanese. At first, I really never get used to it but as years past, I started getting used to it, maybe because of my hairstyle? or the look?. But I always never get used to it when people stare me for quite long because it makes me think that a) Did I dress something wrong? b) Is there any problem with my hair? or c) Do I have something on my face.

Well, asking me if I am a Korean or Japanese now makes me flattering, becaue I'm just a plain pure Chinese girl, who was born here in the Philippines yet other people look me as foreigner. The cons are just my problem, specially when I will go to tyangge, or divisoria to buy something cheap, when they look at me and think I'm a foreigner they will call the price higher and they thought I don't know /pif, and that is really bad XD~ that's why sometimes I always wear a cap if I will go to tyangge so the cap might help me cover my face =p

difference between anger and hate

This is what I found in the internet, what is the meaning and difference between anger and hate. Anger is a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused and Hate is intense dislike. which are you? anger, hate or none?

another Sanuk sandals here, but this is for mens. This sandal is call Draggin' and it's the new , recently release

A sunny day

today was a fine day, it didn't even rain and that's a good news =) well, as for work, still busy as a bee and time really flies so fast when you love what your working and also when you're really busy and didn't even notice the time =p

This was the picture I've taken this morning


And this was the picture taken this afternoon


It's really nice to see a clear sky like this and the feeling, I feel so relax. How about you guys?

While on the other side, got this new sandals for me =D On the other side, got this new sandals for me, this sandals brand called Sanuk, ever heard of it? Sanuk store is open at Robinson Ermita, on the middle of the midtown area (forgot the floor), Glorietta, Mall of Asia. This shoe model called Scribble (for women) there's also Scribble (for men)

"These are not shoes, they're sandals" this is what they say and yes! it really is a sandals and not shoes.


want it? Hurry! visit Sanuk store nearest you! :) There are also other kinds of Sanuk sandals that you can choose :)

low pressure? darn?!

these past few days it always rain so hard, it started 5pm onwards then will flood all the manila area and it's very hard to go home. I heard on the new that Philippines is experiencing low pressure and will expect rain shower and thunderstorm. Today, it didn't rain hard and I'm glad because I'm working outside as of the moment while updating my blog since I quite lost track here. Sorry guys, for those who are keeping track of my blog. I really appreciate for those people who are dropping by my blog.

Also, two days ago, it's so "darn" this is all I can say what I'm feeling until right now. Because of all the people I have, I have those who are back stabber. Those who can do things behind your back, and I really don't understand why they do that and what they earn on that? And it's so ashamed because they are older than me and what they can only do was that? why don't they want to confront me? sa tagalog kasi "lokohan na makitungo sa mga tanong ganyan" and other people will say "hindi na pinapansin yung mga taong ganyan" and yes, it's right. But what if you see them everyday? Seeing them already make me sick even I don't talk to them and what's more worse is that they do something like that behind my back. I want to confront them but due to the age @_@ I cannot just in the form of respect. I told my bf "Seems like 'respect' is in not their dictionary" at kung walang ganyan sa dictionary nila, well might as well bastusan na.

Well, rant out ko lang ito XD~ I just hope you (people out there) don't experience something same like what I'm experiencing right now. Nakakabanas un eh @_@ Well, guys I just hope you have a nice weekend okay? Happy weekend ^^,v

Another New Month...

August 01, another new month for us. well, I just wish that I can have a good start, like on my work, studies and life. How about you guys? what awaits you? I hope you have another good start on august ^^,v

Happy day!

Learn Something New...

Last night, the moon was so perfect, round and bright alone in the sky. I told my mom that the moon was so beautiful and I told her to see it and when she saw he, she suddenly remember and said "oh, i suddenly remember, today in Chinese calendar, date it 15" Then I ask, what does it have to do with the 15th? She said "In Chinese calendar, every 15th day of the month, the moon is round" And me living for 25 years, I just knew it last night and it's something new to me =p

Why did I post this? because I like looking at the sky when nothing to do. Wherever I am, when I am outside I always look up the sky to look for the moon or the stars if they are any. I don't know why I always look up in the sky, but I get the feeling of peace whenever I always look up the sky or sea. And I like scenery that's why the first step that I've done is buying a digital camera for me to picture the scene I've never seen or it's so beautiful or capturing the best moment in anytime. Because best moment don't happen easily, it's just happen in just one click :)

here's the picture of the moon :)

A Rainy day ,Judgement day! -- wil miss my friends

Early morning today, or should I say since last midnight, manila started raining and it's raining hard. And today is also my Final Exam on my Intermediate 2 Japanese Language and I just hope I pass, because I still need 63 point in order to reach the half point of the grade. How about you guys? How's the weather on your country? Is is rainy also?

I also had my lunch out with my Japanese classmates, it's like enjoying the fullest on our last day because we do not know if we will still meet again or when we will meet again. Well, for me, one thing for sure is that I will miss them.... ...a lot...

... even just now, I already miss them... miss you my friends... hope to see you again and soon or should I say, ja matta ne~ kiwotsukette kudasai!

Saturday Saturday Saturday

Well, after all the moving office thingy, this is the first saturday that I go to the office. I go to office to study, but it seems I'm wrong, because I do a little work and now it's already 4:21PM. Time really flies so fast when you're doing a lot of things. and also I decide to post a little here in my blog to keep you guys updated on what is happen to Angels' life ^^,v

Anyways, today I feel like it's a really a coincidence day and also a great day I can say because I got a surprise though I bought it but still I get to got my dream thing. And here the story goes, I walk from D.Jose Till Carriedo to pass by my bf shop because I was going to return his pain killer.

While I was walking along Carriedo, a lot of stuff toys caught my eyes, then I was thinking to go inside the shop. It's a surplus shop, they sell some second hand items and some surplus items while I was about to go inside, there was this big poster posted "Surplus items from Japan" and that's the time I decided to go inside. Because I felt that this might be a good chance that I can get something straight from Japan. At first I want to buy this 60cm transparent umbrella, because it's cute and still useful, it only cost P50. And then I go to the stuff toy section since that was my first aim, then I saw this blue teddy bear, it was kinda different that caught in my eyes. So I decided to buy, then I notice the necktie ribbon of the teddy bear it's A-nation. I look the bear clearly if it's really from A-nation Japan and GOSH! It's real, and I am not dreaming because this was the bear I wish to have one! so I ask this sales lady how much does the teddy bear cost, and it only cost P120 and I didn't hold back and get the bear. I was still on my shopping mode then I saw this little cute white stuff toy, it was called nanami-chan it was so cute then I decided to buy it. Nanami-chan cost P55. When I was about to go to cashier to buy these stuffs, I suddenly remember that I haven't bring a lot of money, well it's my bad, because it was a surprise for me to pass by a shop like that and I have only bring along few money. So I decided to give up the transparent umbrella.

While I was still on shopping, there's someone shouting saying "Those are original from Japan and you get it cheap here" it was sorta marketing for that and I think that guy is the owner or one of the owner. paying I was asking for discount =p then this cashier gave me 8% discount and I was happy because still that 8% was a discount. Then while I was on my way out, the guy *who is shouting before* approach me and give me a shake hand and thank me. And he also bow to me, so my hunch became bigger because I think he's a Japanese. Because only a Japanese owner or manager approaches customer personally and talk to customer personally even just saying "Thank you"


this was the A-nation teddy bear I was talking about ^^v

and this was Nanami-chan I was talking about.
Aren't these two cute? ^^v

Well, just want to share my happiness to the world ^^v Have a nice weekend guys! and Take Care always

Mozilla’s Firefox 3.0 Coming on June 17

Just an update for those people who's using Mozilla Firefox as their default Internet Browser just like me. Mozilla Firefox will release it's version 3.0 on June 17! and it's official! Right now you can download their Candidate release at their website, for testing.

Join the pledge! And let us set Firefox 3 on Guinness World Record for Most Software Downloaded in 24 Hrs.

What's new on Firefox 3?
More Secure : it has it's Malware protection, Web Forgery protection, Anti-virus integration and it has better protection against cross-site JSON data leaks
Easier to Use : easy password management, simplified add-ons installation, Resumable download
More Personal : Quick add bookmark, Tags, Smart Bookmarks folder, Places organizers, Web-based protocol handlers
Improved Performance : Speed -- means more faster browsing and with Javascript clock speed, Memory usage -- with less memory usage, Reliability

For more info, click here!

credits : picture that I get randomly on the internet.

June 12 -- Independence Day!

Today is the day that Philippines celebrate Independence Day! The day Philippines gain freedom.  And guess what?  All LRT1, LRT2, MRT Station get free ride from 5am till 9am then 5pm till 7pm.  Since the original Holiday was move to June 9, so we get to work today June 12.  I just hope that I have few loads on my work today too =p

Have a nice day guys~ Take Care! ^^,v

TO : Sizzlin' Pepper Steak Trinoma Branch

To whoever read this, I just want to share my experience with this restaurant. And I want to reach this out to all the people in the world, specially for those who are residing and visiting here in the Philippines. and also to the owner of the branch to check his/her staff on what they are really doing.

The first time I visit Sizzlin' Pepper Steak House in Trinoma Branch, me and my boyfriend got a good service from this Female Manger, if I remember it correctly, her name was Myla or Maila * I do not remember the right spelling loh~ XD~ * But anyways, she accommodate us with a good customer service and the service was fast even they have only few staffs. That's the time I decide that if I go to Trinoma again, I will eat at Sizzlin' Pepper Steak again

The second time me and my boyfriend decided to eat at Sizzlin' Pepper Steak because we got a good service before. June 01, 2008, the very first day of June that made me piss off and this was a total different from before, a total vise versa. When we got in the restaurant (6:30 PM), I didn't have the good vibe from the girl who accommodate us. Just when I saw her face, she don't have the friendly smile to the customer and good customer service. That was the first strike. When we sat down, we decide what to order, it took us 5 minutes to decide. When we're about to order, no waiter or any staff approach to us, even we raise our hand for quite some time. It took us 10 minutes for the staffs to wait for us (6:45 PM). And that was the time I decide and count how many minutes do they take their services. The drinks came so fast so I thought it was a coupe up for us. I waited my soup for 10 minutes (6:55 PM) still excusable for me because I know how long a soup cook. We waited the food for almost 30 minutes plus. During our waiting on our food, around 20 minutes had pass (7:15 PM), we were raising our hand for our follow up. but no waiter approach us again, that was the time I start getting irritated again. This was strike 3. I was looking around the restaurant, other people who get in the restaurant and order later than us, they got their order faster than us. after 5 minutes (7:20 PM)(we were still raising our hand) at last a waiter approach us and ask what we need, my bf told the waiter that we are following up the food that we order, and the waiter said that he will check out our order, but he never get back to us. The girl I was talking about before, who don't have the friendly smile, just pass by us, even we are still raising our hand, as if we were not there or even not existed (that was so rude). I told my boyfriend that I'm pissed off already and if the time reach 7:30 PM I will walk out this restaurant and pay what we only have, which is our drinks and the soup only. And it was only 3 minutes left, to reach 7:30 PM. During that 10 minutes I was looking around the restaurant and looking to the girl, who always got the not good look, like she's in a bad mood. I told my bf, that when you are working on a restaurant and if you are not in the good mood, you cannot show it to the customer, because that's bad. I also saw their POS counter, and there is a highlight word said "Always wear a SMILE to your customer". I told my bf that what is the use of the highlighted word in the POS counter if they are not using it. And the girl even don't have her name tag pin on and she's the only one person who don't wear her name tag. All the staff are wearing it. We got our food around 7:27 PM, my bf told the waiter "Ang tagal ha.." and it's like the waiter didn't hear it because he never even say "sorry" to us and just accommodated us. when the waiter left us, I told my bf that what he had done to us is not enough for the very long time that we waited. And that is also the time that we decided that we might not go back and eat at Sizzlin' Pepper Steak if we go to Trinoma again.

Even if they reason out that they have few staffs on that they, why still other people who got in the restaurant and order food later than us got their order first than us. And also, even when the first time we ate there, they also had few staffs and there are a lot of customers too. but we got our good service. And this second time, (base on my observation) the customer are just okay, not to many and not to few. There are not people who are in the waiting area in that time. But why their service are so slow?

Still a mess XD

well, as for work as you can see my table is still a mess, after the movement to our new location of our office and guess what, my PC broke XD~. Because we still have a lot of things to do @_@ and I assume that after a month I can break free and fix up my PC and table =D

april days...

wow! days really past so fast and I didn't realize that it's April already ~.~ and wow! it's very hot here in the Philippines, as the weather forecast says, Philippines will be having a hot June T_T oh man, I just hope I can tolerate the weather T_T Really sorry guys, for those people who are reading my blog I am very sorry for the very very slow updates.

well, as for work, I've been very busy all along, starting mid-March. Because our office is moving to a new location and there are a lot of things (as the word says, A LOT OF THINGS) need to polish and be implemented and we don't have a lot of time, because there are also a lot of concerns about the new location. Well, all I can say is new location, new people and new problem XD~ well, I just hope things will be okay as days goes by....

and as for my personal life, I'm getting thiner due to my busy work T_T and there are a lot of people told me to eat more XD~ but hey! how can I eat more if I'm so busy at my work and when I got home all I want is to sleep but of course, talk to my sweet angel is in the list before sleeping :p We are now 2 years already and going strong, and I pray we go till the end. Well, got to go guys, really for the very slow update, but I promise I will coupe up with you guys, once I got out of my cage XD~

God bless you guys and have a happy weekdays as the way it should start ^^,v

slow pace....

Hi guys... really sorry if my blog is in a slow pace of update these past few months and weeks... due to my work sched, it was so hectic and really busy. But I promise that I will try my best to update my blog every now and then and I won't stop posting... nothing can stop me from posting... Have a nice Holy week guys ^^v

... Reasons...

We live our life eversince the day we were born, I know that there's a reason why we were born, because there is something for us to do in to this world. Some of us, find the reason to live and to live stronger but does the reason really necessary? Does the reason should always be there? Even expressing your feelings? Do we have to have a reason to express our feelings? and should be acceptable by others? And if not acceptable by others you lose? I know life is unfair but why? well, I know other people will say 'that's life, so life sucks' but why it have to be that way? Some other people will say that, maybe that's the way how they care or concern about you... but why they cannot feel that they are already hurting that person? If they really care about that person they should also know and feel how the person feel... I just hope... I just really hope.... that one day... one day... that will come....

Heart shape for you...

Heart Shape to all the people in the world... Hope you guys did enjoy your Valentine's Day :) as for me I did enjoy =) Happy weekend ^^v

Happy Heart's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to all people all over the world ^^,v hope you enjoy your Valentine's Day with your love ones

1 day to go ^^v

Hi guys, I guess some of you with couples or not are excited about Hearts day~ and it's only 1 day away, well.. here in the Philippines :p I just wish all of the people in the world that hope you guys enjoy your Valentine's Day~

February -- Month of Hearts ^^v

February is also knows as the months of hearts and as for me, I still have a lot of work stuffs to do =p and I really need to finish it asap or my boss will kill me xp~ just kidding boss, if you ever pass by my blog =p I wish a lot of people will be happy on the hearts day and enjoy their day with their love ones =)

Day 05 sweet angel apart

well, technically today is day 5 already because it's pass 12am of wednesday lah~ XD well, days are still the same for me but after I heard your voice last Sunday night, I feel much better and I somehow become worry free. But of course you cannot let me feel a little worry because you are apart me, I always think of you, like how are you doing there? Area you okay there? are you eating well there? and many other things. As these past few days past and somehow we have our communication quite back to normal, I am very happy that you are okay there and you eat well :) well, about the hotel thing... hmm... maybe you just got out of luck XD but still I want you to live well there. After we have our chat last night (because today is already thursday lah~ XD) I feel much better and better because you're okay and very fine there and I am happy that you are eating and living well there, but there is only one problem... I miss you so much my sweet angel.. hope I can see you soon :)

Day 1 without sweet angel....

I thought it would be easy but I realize today, it's not... I know it's just a week but I already misses him so much even at this moment. This really makes me sad, somehow I want to let myself get busy on my work so it won't let me feel sad for a while but my heart can't, right now my heart is getting even with my brain. This is what I am, when my heart speaks I brain can't work properly, I hope I can survive this.

And as for you my sweet angel, I will always pray for you to keep you safe always....

2008 lah~

Though it's quite late lah~ but still better late than never =D welcome 2008 and in the beginning of the year, I wish all the people in the world to have a great 2008 ^^v and as for me, wish me luck on my life, my age of + 1 and also my work XD~ take care guys :D

few days to go

it's 4 days to before Christmas and it's my last day of work as too :D Though I will still be going to office on the 26th-28th because I'll be teaching dance for our company dance competition, wish me luck :D and also, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of the people in the world :)

December days...

month of December already started and I haven't been posting for a while because of busy schedule of my work... TT_TT Rainy days sometimes come sometimes go here in the Philippines, you can feel the cold days already, but this year is not just a normal cold but a so cold December. Can this be related to the Global Warming that other people are saying? hmm.. well i hope not because I don't want be the end of the world XD Well have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year guys :D

Love.... and Work...

Guess when you really love someone, you will do anything for them even it sometimes hurt you or makes you sad... let's change topic =D about my work recently? Well, it's starting to get pile up again because of license sorting @_@ and I get dizzy for that T_T well, wish me luck for that T__T

As days pass...

Days really pass so fast and it's already November... only few days and it will be December loh~ and my company again says that we'll move around start of December, well... All I need to do is just to wait for that day because who knows the date might moved again :p And about work, a lot of stuffs have to be done and it's already top of my head lah >.< Even maintaining this blog is quite slow again lah and with my BH family is also fading lah and I don't want it because I love posting and writing thing and stuffs that I learn all in my life and all the memories that I've experice. ^^v

Well, this is all I can say as of today... I hope you guys will have a great start of the week... take care and god bless... and to my BH family, love yah and miss yah all ^^v

Busy days...

wow~ it's been a while that I didn't post here... sorry, because I've been busy these past few weeks... but don't worry I will make it up next week... hope you guys have a nice weekend this week ^^v

2 day big responsibility....

Day 1 : It was a big big responsibility that gave it to me , last Sept. 26 and 27, 2007. We are only 3 in the office, because our other personnel have other seminar, training and technical to attend. 1 HW, 2SW and 1SRD. HW is the most major service in our Department, because we only not entertain service internally but also externally (for our stores). A lot of people been calling here and there and I was really been running around all over our work place. And in the afternoon, something happened. One of our AVR that is supporting our UPS for our 3 Server got problem and I get to change another new AVR first. Then after 5 minutes, we smell like something is burning and I realize that it was the new AVR that we change is burning, 2 servers are already down and the major server is still continuing but nearly going dead. My full concentration was on that server because our server cannot go dead unless we really do no have a choice. Then at last, i found the solution. But while I was on my momentum, this person shock me up that make me angry and shout at him and I almost cried because I suddenly burst out. I was really really mad at him during that time, because I cannot find the reason why did he do that for? To change the mood? it's okay to change the mood but not during that time, it's not proper.

Day 2 : Pressure still on me, because we are still lack of people. but I was able to handle the situation in good condition and I am satisfied on that day.

RESPONSIBILITY is really a challenge in me, because if you ask me.... I am not a responsible person, even my friend says that I am a responsible person, because that is how and what I feel. This is me, i know what I feel and I know what I do. But in this work, i think i must push that inorder to survive >.<

!@#%!@ really happens >=(

guys, sorry about the word that I will say but sh!t really happens when you are just living in your own and quite world. Because someone hacked my yahoo account and guess what?! He or She is asking load from the people in my ym list. Here's my story, it's 4pm today and I'm at my office, I visit my dentist to have some checkup and after an hour that I get back (so that makes it 5pm) I got sign-out on my ym. I didn't mind first, because I though that our internet just got intermittent and I got sign-out then when I log-in for how many time and my friend starting to text me about something "Are you asking for load?" I said no and I told them that I have a hunch that I got hack. And after I have log-in a lot of times, that i have proven that I got hack. My friend was asking me, who is that person and why will that hacked me? I said, I cannot think of anyone because my account is just a year and half old; and I also do not know the purpose of that person @_@ I just wish that, whoever hack my account will get his/her karma it time...

...Rain...

Rain reminds me of who I am and what I am before. Rain gives me the sad feeling but I don't mind about it because that is the way i grow up. Everytime when it rains, something sad always happen to me at the same time. Yesterday, when I got home around 8pm, it rain so hard and it remind of me of what I am before, but I am not sad... that's the only time that I can reminisce what really I am.

at last... first wish came true...

at last, one of my wish came true. And this is it!!! ^^v I reach my first ever wish :D It's really hard but also same time happy. Guess, when you want something in life (like things, goals, etc.) and when you work hard for it, it really feels great. I hope I can have my other wish come true :D

I am really happy that because at last, i got my first wish. Know why? because I like taking pictures and capture every good moment in every chance that I got :D more pictures to update here i guess? ^^v

Troma part 2?

Oh my~ what happen O.O I didn't expect this to happen.  We ICT Group go out at the same time and our boss suddenly come to our room and all she can see is an empty room >.<  and when I get back I hear from my other department says that our boss is looking for us and she look frustrated ('o') and I rush to her to make it up but it didn't happen but I am still glad that she didn't get mad at me, instead she talk to me seriously regarding our issues and our work style... and yes, she has a point.. I feel so shame about that... but know what's more trouble?  My people, don't want to listen what I am saying and even how I feel.  Guess, that's why I don't want to be boss all along because I am not so strict at people and people don't listen to me....

1 and 1/2 year and still going strong... choices...

wow~ days really past so fast and look at us now... still going strong and I am very happy to tell all the people in the world that you are the greatest guy I've ever met in my whole life.  My other friend says that, that is just now because we'll never predict what will happend in the future and know what I've told them?  Furture is for us to decide and the only thing we need to do is to stand on our right decision and make the right choice in life.  In life, we make a lot of choices, some are wrong and some are right.  But it's still the point of view of each individual, what if person A has a choice and he feels its the right choice? but other says it's wrong?  In life, we have our own choices in each of our own point of view.  That's why in life, you cannot dictate that persons choice because you are not the one who holds the life of other people.  And we stand by own choices.  That staying with you for the rest of my life is my choice, giving you up not easily is also my choice and Loving your for the rest of my life is my feeling for you to the end and I will stand my decision till the end.  Happy Monthsary my dearest and Love you very much, always and forever *HuGs*

I am happy with my life and I hope other people in the world are also happy like me spending time with your family, friends and loved one.

First time work on Saturday

Sept 1, 2007 was my first ever saturday work at office and guess what? it's cool and I can concentrate more than the usual. Well, the reason why I go to work on that day is because I need to finish some work stuffs and yes I finish it on time and I am glad that they liked my work :D

Linux makes me mad @_@

Linux really made me mad @_@ hahahaha.. but though I enjoy it 'cause at least I learn new things aside from windows? :p but Linux really gave me a lot of hard times because I am not good at DOS type of application because Linux is much more on DOS Type. In my current work, this is my first time hands-on in Linux and somehow it feels great (because I learn new things) and hard (because it give me hard time to learn, need fast research all the time :p) well just wish me luck on my work on Linux :D

It's been a while... -- Lunar Eclipse --

wow~ days really past so fast and it's been a while that I haven't post... really sorry guys... because of work stuffs.

Yesterday; Aug 28, 2007, the world experience Lunar Eclipse. In Philippine times, is starts around 6pm till 720pm but really sad because during that time Manila area experience cloudy and rainy nights.. really sad that I didn't see that once in a lifetime Lunar Eclipse..


But they said that Lunar Eclipse will happen again on year 2010? Will it happen again? We all don't know but I am hoping ^^v

wow~ got approved

yes~! I got approved from Google AdSense. Thank you for my dearest friend jemme for referring me and to Google thank you for giving the chance ^^v Hope this click on me ^^v

17 months...

17 months.. and still going strong and I am very happy I just hope this will go on and on till the future :D yesterday was really rocky and I didn't really meant to cry because of disappointment but maybe because of sadness, I am really sorry for that and making your worry about me. I know you are in to your work, that is why I don't want to interfere but my feeling got over flow. but life must go one and I am very happy to have you in my life though we have our ups and downs I still want to be with you for the rest of my life. Because you accept me of what I am...

72% Addict XD~

haha... a great site that I saw, when I drop by a blog of a friend of mine XD~
72%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?wow~ I can't believe it... got this result after the test... why don't you try it? and see what's your result ^^v

credits : Mingle² + Jehz Concept

xpango.com?

I visited a site that is quite catch :D i don't know if that will work.. but base on the testimonials on the their website, it work... try it... there's nothing to lose ^^V click the picture... no one knows you might get the free gift you want? ^^

About Three Things...

I happen to visit my friends' blog again and I saw this funny questions so I just answer it...

Three Things That Scares Me
1. Lose my sweet angel
2. Lose my family
3. Lose my friends

Three People Who Make Me Laugh
1. sweet angel
2. jack, jhez
3. salvador, mavs

Three Things I Love
1. baking
2. Graphic Designing
3. writing blog

Three Things I Hate
1. liar
2. back biter
3. people who judge other just because of their appearance

Three Things I Don’t Understand
1. math
2. physics
3. chemistry :p

Three Things On My Desk
1. Keyboard
2. Mouse
3. Cell Phone

Three Things I Am Doing Right Now
1. working
2. writing blog
3. visiting my favorite BH

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die
1. Spend my time with sweet angel
2. Spend my time with my family and relatives
3. Spend my time with my friends

Three Things I Can Do
1. assist my boss
2. being resourceful again
3. Hardware

Three Things I Can’t Do
1. be a responsible boss
2. fly?
3. still not a good skater

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To
1. Yourself
2. Parents
3. Trusted Friends

Three Things You Should Never Listen To
1. Untrusted Friends
2. liers
3. Scammers

Three Things I Would Like To Learn
1. Software prgramming
2. Baking
3. Good Skating

Three Favorite Foods
1. Pasta
2. Pasta
3. Pasta

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid
1. X-men
2. Transformer
3. a lots lots of anime

July 30, 2007 -- last monday of the month

1 more day and it's August lah~ days really pass so fast and work is getting harder and harder and I need to work more harder and harder... today was quite tiring day because of installing stuffs and setting up a new network layout for our new building. I just realize now that, thinking such things till the end of your brain is really tiring... glad I have my food supplement with me =p that was my life saver :D I don't feel much stress because of that... I need to work more harder to give them an impression and to leave them with that because I really do not like to be a boss or manager because that is not a type of me.. well, maybe that can be learn but I don't feel like it. But my boyfriend always says that in life, we should go up and stand up inorder to grow... guess he's right...

Day 2 of I2

Today is the day two of my intermediate 1 class of nihongo center foudation inc. and i am very happy that i understand all the lesson that my prof teach, but lessons are getting tougher and I need to be attentive and not be late in class anymore because I'll be missing a lot.... I just realize now, that when you understand the lesson, it made me so happy but I do not know the reason why? Well, maybe it's because I learn new? I don't know... I just wish that I'll be able to understand all the lessons in my class till the end... Good Luck to me guys and hope you have a great weekend.... Take Care

Friday......

yet today is another end of the day and end of the week.. and another day and weeks passed again.. it's the 4th week of July... days really pass so fast and time also flies so fast that cannot wait for us. As for work, it's really getting harder and busier and I cannot have my playtime at office loh... and I need to get serious loh in order to work those stuffs out... really need to focus and concentrate lah~ but I'm really really tired of it... guess, work is really that... need to face all the challenge in work and life. whenever I got home these, I always go to sleep for few hours to get my energy back then eat dinner.. I wish I still have the same energy when I was still in my teenage days..

3day blog in one =p

Last Saturday (July 21) My first day of class in Nihongo Center Foundation Inc. in Intermediate 1 Class. Wow~ and I was really amaze on my teacher because he no longer speak Tagalog or English anymore in class TT_TT he speak pure japanese and 1% english if ever and this might be my challenge if I really want to continue my japanese class till the end I must try my very hard to achieve that goal. Practice Practice Practice is now in my mind always and I should do it~! Wish me luck, hello world ^^v I will try my very best to surpass this challenge.

Scared... I thought in y life, I would never be scare anymore but when you're just being quiet there I am starting to get scared because I do not know what you are thinking anymore. I am also scared to lose you 'cause I don't know what to do and I don't know how to go on with my life...

Today, I start to get serious on working and quit playing games now because I want to achieve my goals in life and hope I can do it... wish my luck in my life, hello world :D

Take Care you all~

... days ... weeks ...

days really past so fast.... and it's been days and weeks that we haven't much talk... we have the time during the weekend but it's not enough XD~ and I've been missing you loh~ guess life's really tough and I have to face that challenge. And speaking of challenge, my work also do challenge me and a lot of hard work needed here... wish me good luck....

...choices...

I've watch this movie that I'll always remember... it's about the choices we make... we choose what we can to and we choose what we decide to do. And there are a lot of choices that we can make, we do not know if our choices are right or wrong because of our point of view. Choices also has it's own point of view, that's why we do not know if the choices that we choose is right or wrong. We are the one's who are committed with the choices, the only time we know that the choices that we make is right or wrong because we have our point of view in life so we must think very carefully in making choices.

In life....

yet in life we really never get along huh? when we always meet, all we do is to agrue or lecturing me... why is that always happend? Do you think I am that dumb not to think what I am doing? Please see to it first that what I do before critisizing me. You always do that, not only to me but also to other people, can't you learn that? when other people critisize you, you feel offended and always speak out that as if you are always right or perfect @_@ Please don't... because each of us are not perfect. It make me think that I should make a margin with you, that never be close to you and don't care what you do to me. But please don't always guard or notice me just because you have nothing to do but always see me.

...June...

Month of June is the month of school... start of school and somehow I miss schooling... I still remember when I was still on schooling, I don't like books and studying... and now I graduate loh~ and missing of studying loh and realize that studying is fun. Actually, working is fun too when you like what you are working on but somehow it makes you feel tired than studying. June is also the month of rainy season and rainy season is already starting but sometimes it's hot also @_@ really don't know what the weather really want to feel XD~ sometimes cold sometimes hot but what I don't like is the air is hot, it feels hot already and it's also hard to breath because the air is hot.

... Sad but True ...

In relationship, you should know very well what "Sacrifice" means... it's not just a simple word that can say and do easily because it also mix with feelings. I somehow thought that I've already understand very well what that means, but then right now I realize that it takes a lot of courage to face that challenge in life. Challenging sacrifice is not that easy and now I need a lot of courage to face that challenge that I am currently in... it's been past few weeks and we don't have that long talk anymore, even date and I do really miss him soooo much. I'm telling this, is not mean in ranting because of this and that... I just want to tell you that I miss you soo much because we didn't have regular talk on phone anymore and we didn't been each other anymore that long for a week loh~ But I DO understand you and you have my full support because I DO love you so much. Just like I promise before, I will not do the things that what a common girlfriend do. Though sometimes I want your attention so much but I don't want to strangle you because I really cherish our relationship and want to keep it till the end. Now, what I know need to do is to wait for you and I know you will pick me up where I wait you.... MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

... work ...

why I always have dumb decision on work? No matter how I try my best to avoid of being dumb I always get that result in the end. I just wish that I could avoid that one day. I didn't cried in that time when that happened. I just blame myself for my dumb decision and dumb work but why when he called me and ask for an apology I almost cried?

... sibling thing ...

guess in this life we can never be close.... since we were kid we never get close we just go for casual laugh only because when we get close we only get our conversation heat up and we don't agree on almost anything. Though I tried many times but i think there's no way anymore. I tried but I doubt you ever see it or felt it. Yeah yeah~ I know, no matter what I do or even the world round counter clockwise or the sun sets the other way around you are still my family and I cannot change that... but what I want to say that, eventhough we are family we can never be compatible for each other...

.. what a day ...

it's already end of the day and I thought I have done a lot of good things and in the end it turns out not... and I did the most dumbest thing in my work... I have deleted one of the folder files of our pmx and uhr.. gosh... it's really bad and I felt bad. Though my boss said it's okay... but still it reflect on my work duty.. I just hope I won't be doing that second time....

Tomorrow is my exam again on Nihongo Foundation and I wish I pass the test.... wish me luck...

... Labor Day ...

Good day everyone in the world... Today is the the first day of May and it's Labor Day... How's your Labor Day there in your country? I hope you guys are enjoying your labor day as well :) Here in the Philippines, some of the store are not open... well of course, it's labor day... but some store is also open. Today is the showing of Spiderman 3 and I am sure all the cinema here are loaded @_@ hahahaha... and it's a rest day for me.. thought I am here in the computer shop of my friend and not in the house... because house is sooo depressing.. aside from no internet a lot of people in the house... and tomorrow is normal day again loh~ back to work again... I hope you guys are enjoying your labor day :) Have a happy Labor day~

..another day...

yet another last day of the month... days really past so fast and it's already May tomorrow... hope you guys have a great month these past few months... Me? I still got a lot of rush project to do... it's already line up till the month of June... Wish me all the luck on my project and hope I can make them good and have my KRA result good =p

April...

wow~ days really past so fast and I haven't post for quite a while... 'cause I've been very busy on my work... and it's already 4th week of April so and summer is already starting... These past few days, it's really really hot here in the Philippines, I wish it would be colder sometimes ^^v I wish I could have a nice break after my long month of working with my deadline @_@ and this week I have my midterm on Nihongo Foundation, Kanji, reading and hearing and next week I will also have my continuation exam on Nihongo Foundation and this time is vocabulary and grammar, wish my luck on my exam :) Take Care you guys~ have a great day ahead ^^v

... Today ...

As for this month, there's a lot of project coming up because we are moving to the new building and I must finish those project next month... Today is the second of the last day of March and hope I can finish those manual and account and hope when they login, it won't have any problem at all.

After this week, next week we will only have 3 day of work 'cause of Holy Week ^^v weeee... from April 5 to 9, that means 5 days of no work *yeah~* \m/ And I will take that as an opportunity to have a nice relax vacation =D That also means that, this week I have to finish the stuff I need to finish ;)

for those who will have the same date vacation with me, Happy Vacation ;)

March Days

It's March already, days really past so fast... I just felt like January 2007 yesterday... Guess time really flies fast. March days... Graduation Days... Happy 2007 Graduation to those people who are graduating :)

Life really sucks @_@ 'cause my network walkman suddenly didn't work and I do not know what happened all I did what just to charge the phone and listen to my music, then suddenly when I will charge again my computer doesn't recognize my network walkman anymore TT_TT I do not know what really is the problem, it cannot be my usb drive because I am using usb keyboard and mouse. My friend told me, maybe it's a firmware problem.. Maybe? Maybe not... ~>.<~

28th Feb, 49th Day

28th Feb. 20007 is the 49th day since the day your apart from us. It's been how many days that you already apart from us, how are you? I know that it's kinda bad to hear for you to enter our dream but sometimes we want to know if how are you really doing? Dad said that if you don't let us dream, that means you're already fine and in Heaven. And of course, we are happy to hear that...

Changing the topic =p and it's been a while that i've write here XD~ don't worry i'll cope up with the days i've miss...

Welcome 2007...

Welcome 2007, Year of the PiG. Yet another year beginning. Hope it's a great year for all of us... On work, on personal life and on our future... I'm really happy because my grandmother is recovering now and hope that she will recover more and more until my birthday, because I wish that I could celebrate my birthday with her...

奇跡。。。 希望。。。

Miracle really do happen in life, I am not just saying this now because it just happen now, but I really do... it's just that, I do believe more because it really happen to me... not only me but to me and my family... It was really a miracle, every since that my grand mother confine at the hospital and very little improvement, we are not only physically tired but also mentally tired because we always think of her and worried, because we want her to recover fast and don't want to let her feel suffer... I am not blaming my grand mother that giving us hardship in worry but she's been a part of our family for almost many years... look she's 101 years old already and I am proud...

until last Sunday morning, my dad finally decide to let her go... my father already talk to his siblings about it and ready also to tell the doctor to let grand mother go.. but when he's about to tell the doctor, guess what our doctor said? "Hey, your grand mother is very strong did you know that? heart beat is slowly beating back to normal. Medicine that she's taking start lessening. If her case will improve always in few weeks later, she's out of danger...." the Doctor said. When my father heard, he was stun, not stun of shock but stun of happiness. My father got home and told us the news we where very happy, and he also told us that grand mother somehow opened her eyes. That's a good sign right?

We do hope for miracle in life and we also do hope that miracle happen but not always. But I think we do not choose who to believe to give us the miracle we want but they are the ones' who choose us to make us a miracle. They choose who has strong belief and strong faith and that is how they help us. Don't blame your religion if they don't make the miracle the way you want it. That only means that your belief and strong faith is not enough. And you still have doubts. We all say that we have strong belief and faith in them but in the back of our thoughts if there's still a doubt (even if we don't see it) they can see and feel it. But if you feel that you really have strong belief and faith, and if the miracle that you are hoping for didn't happen, maybe the time hasn't come yet or it wasn't meant for what you are wishing for or the time has come to let go. I know a quote that "Doubt is easy to built than trust" and that is true it proves, it's always in front of us, we just don't want to see it, we just don't want to face it and we just don't want to accept it. It's true that it's easier to say than to do but we have to face the fact that, that is the cycle of life. All we have to do is to be strong.

In Life...

In life, anything can happen anytime... you'll never predict what will happen next... seconds later, minutes later, hour later, day later... Life is too broad to predict even you can predict ones' future, you somehow still cannot avoid the happenings because it's faith. But we can change our faith by working out our present, but that won't work all the time. Every second, every minute, every hour, everyday counts. Love everything what is in your life, cherish everything what you have right now before it's gone. Be contented on what you have right now, never wish more that what can give. Life is like a bridge that we are crossing, well never know there is a hole in front of it. We might fall but sometimes we are rescue by the people around us, but sometimes in life that hole that you fall is meant to happen that we cannot do anything about it but to hold on to the hope and have strong faith that we will be saved. But if there is no one there to rescue you... it's true, life is unfair it can never be fair. You'll ask the question why, but that really meant to happen. That's why cherish everything what we have right now in life and be contented...

試験。。。

Judgment day already pass... it's yesterday... it was my exam on Japanese. I really wish I will pass the exam... on the first part of the exam, I got 40/100 I need 80 points to pass >.<
My friend says that I will pass, I just hope that I really will pass... it's just that my mind cannot help but to always doubt, I don't want to think that loh~ but it kept me thinking... now all I need is have a miracle to have 80 points to pass... I really hope that I will pass too... I really need to pass... i really want... just pray for me that I will pass, I will I will...

Have faith my Angel, you will pass the exam. you will, I know you can do it... even your friend is cheering you that means they believe in you :D stay strong, don't think negative. Because the more you think it negative the more negative aura will get near you... think positive okay, positive aura will be always by your side ;) Good luck my dear Angel...

now I know...

Few years before... I never fully understand why my best friend kept me the time what had happen to his grandmother. And I've also confront him, and I told him that I thought I was his best friend and what is the use of being close when keeping things to each other. I know that there are things that shouldn't be told to others but still there are some should. Right now, me and my family are facing a big challenge of our lives. My grandmother is already living for centuries, I know it's hard to believe but it's true. Last Wednesday (December 06, 2006) was her 101st birthday... but her Chinese birthday was November 16, 1907. 101 is count on the Chinese calendar. On that day, we never thought that the shock might happen to her. I thought that I am already strong enough to face all the types of challenges in my life but I was wrong... I am still very very weak.

Right now, my grandmother is confine in the hospital. Medicine are the only thing that is pushing her to live and make her live. She can hear, feel... I know that, but it's just that she cannot wake up anymore because of the brain damage. Me and my family really hope for a big miracle, and hope that will happen. But if not, please give us the sign first before getting our grandmother. She's important to us. If she really want to release the line please give us line so we will be strong in releasing the line also. Until now, no sign is given that is why we are still holding tight the line not to let her go. I know, you guys will say 'that's life, we should learn to let go and move on' That's true in life. But it's harder doing it than say.. just give us the sign... just one sign...

None of my friend know this, unless one but still it isn't my best friend. Now I know and understand how my best friend feel when his grandmother was confine in the hospital... I am really sorry my dearest best friend, I just hope that in that time, I understand you first than confronting you... Hope you'll forgive me...

surprises....

There's a lot of surprises in life.. I thought I will always be ready for that... but I was wrong... I was soo weak and unprepare... when will I learn from those experience to be stronger than ever?

Christmas is getting near... only 15 days to go... what are you guys doing for Christmas? Hope you guys will have a great Christmas this year... ^^v

Shiken....

There goes my exam yesterday... there was a lot of people there and it's a very little chance that I might get on top... I just wish that I pass the exam I am contented and as my learning lesson to study hard everytime so I won't have hard time when big exam come....

And as for those bad memories, I really wish that I have an amnesia for they will be gone... I know I know that, that just running away from my problems... but I don't have a choice already so I think that as a solution in my life... am I thinking that I cannot carry those problems in my life anymore? I hope I still can... just like before.. even in my face you cannot see it...

Thought I've never cry again...

As I grow... a lot of thins had happen... so much hurtful that I've felt, I told myself that I'll never cry again... and I also told myself that I won't easily trust other people again but I still always do... I know that every person have right to live and deserve a second chance, but why they waste it?

At first I try to be open to him but I can't, I don't know why... I thought the problem was in me... but I was wrong, the problem was in "him". Shouting at me out of no reason. Does he really respect my sister? If he do, then why shout me? Because of wasting his time? If he really felt that I waste his time, why fetch my sister? He didn't even respect me, by shouting me in front of my sister. My boyfriend can do the things he cannot do, which is spending his time with me and my family and never think that we are a waste of his time. if Nelson felt that I waste his time, he's not in-love with my sister. He's after something and I'm sure of it. The hell with him, sorry for my rude words but I was so shock and it hurt me so much that I almost cried in the middle of the street. I thought I've already lost and get rid of those feelings already, but I was wrong, it was sleeping within me just like Black Winged Angel.


Now he have awaken Black Winged Angel, should I thank him? or should he be careful with me starting right now? because I will have my full Black Winged Angel take over me and get rid of him. I can't blame my sister, for me it's between me and him. If he can shout me in front of my sister and he's still not in our family yet, how much in the future if he married my sister? He can shout her anytime, anywhere. I will get rid of him no matter what, he's really dealing with the wrong person. He started the fire. Before he will do more flame, I will start earlier than him, he wants to start hell? I will show him and let him feel it first and the worst. I will never ever forgive him, he has no right to do that to me. Yah, I know I know, God can forgive why can't we...? That's why I was decent here, an angel was created but a different one and that is me... Black Winged Angel... the Angel of Death...

...Black Winged Angel.... revived...

As we all know Angel are sent by GoD to watch over the people who are good... for me I treat myself as one of those but I am different... as I am sent by God, but decent here to watch over people that I care about... the different thing is... I am a black winged angel... a good one but sometimes I can become evil, by doing something that angel shouldn't be doing... I know it's wrong but still I cannot help doing wrong sometimes.. guess people or even angels are not born or created perfect.

Thought I was changed... and thought I already leave Black Winged Angel already... yet I think the Black Winged Angel is just sleeping inside of me, and now it revived again... and it's time to have it revived...

Exams...

exams exams exams... exams are here again... sacrifice are to be made again... I really really miss him a lot but we have to work for our future... It's sad but we have to do what we need to do... guess sacrifice never ends... but I know it's worth it...

Cross finger... I only have one week left for my JLPT exam.. wish me luck XD~

Take care guys.. hope you guys have a great day ahead.. ^_~

Sacrifices... a worth while...

Many things have happen to me.... since I graduated at College, work, life, and until now... There are things that I do for good, but why it never seen by other people? It kept bury always... Does it have to be always that way? Or it's just not on the right time? -- these are the question that I usually question myself that left without an answer... but now I learn about it... making sacrifices don't need answer all the time... and making sacrifices don't need to see or feel by all the people because you cannot please all the people around you... Well, facing the fact, although it really hurt me but I have nothing to do with it, that is the Law of Life, you can't take it? live with it.. but I also realize that making sacrifices needs time and it's a worth while...

Ain't that enough?

it's Monday again, and my weekend are filled with sadness that I cannot avoid... It always occur on my mind no matter what I do to forget it. Even though that I do not want to think about it, it always pop on my mind. I know only ourself can understand the feeling of our gut. But when you raise it to the person that you are concern, ain't that enough? ain't that enough that you are concern to them? Oh well, but all that she did was laugh, glad I get use to people not get serious on me. well, I just hope that I will ate my words and guts, if I am wrong. But I also found out that recently it's not only me who have that not good feeling, but also my parents -_-; But oh well, I am just the youngest of all in the house. I cannot do anything, even I state my feelings and ideas. Why? Can the guy support her future? Can the guy support her a good life? and Can the guy support her till the end? even his family? He doesn't even have a stable job right now? I didn't mean that he is really jobless but his job is on and off. How can a guy like that support his girlfriend or wife in the future right? I know I am too early to judge a him like that, but my mind keep on telling me that something is really wrong with that guy... this already bugging me for how many days. I try to open to him but it still didn't work. If he can prove to me, all of my questions and doubts I will accept him, and I will accept that my guts, and intuition are wrong. BUT~ if he fails, I will be the first one in the family who will confront him.

Today at work, I don't quite work because I quite catch cold because of the weather change @_@ glad I didn't have cough, har har har... and my head near going to freeze because it's cold her in the office >.> and hope I can resume work normally tomorrow. ho ho ho~ but even that happens I am still happy at the office... :p Well, till here, hope you guys have a great day~

Get use to...

In life, we learn a lot of lesson as we grow up... and I am really glad that I am get used to it... specially people not get serious on me when I talk something quite important. Well, that maybe not important to other people but hey~ it's important to me... Glad I get use to that because I remember way back when I am not get use to it, I get angry to myself because people don't take me seriously... And I also learn that in life, you should always be ready for anything, I MEAN "anything"

November Times...

hello November.. belated Happy Holloween :D November November November, only few days pass and it will December loh~ and on November 19, 2006 I'll be 6months working at Primer loh~ :D Hope I can be regular loh~ :D and hope I don't get my 3 days suspension because of having 6 lates TT_TT because last month I got late for 6 times because of tardiness, a.k.a. tamad :p

Well, only 2days to count sweet angel and I will be 8months loh~ days really past so fast, it's like just few days ago the we are official and now we are 8months loh~ I hope this continue till we get old :D

As for work, well... I get more project lah~ and hope I can finish these in November so I can relax in December and have a nice Christmas break...

I just realize recently that in life, we should make wise decision for our future. And also I realize that I can make more sacrifice for my love one.... that I thought I can't guess when you really love your loveones you can do everything... althought quite feel sad because you have to sacrifice your feelings and what you need to do just for your loveone...