2 day big responsibility....

Day 1 : It was a big big responsibility that gave it to me , last Sept. 26 and 27, 2007. We are only 3 in the office, because our other personnel have other seminar, training and technical to attend. 1 HW, 2SW and 1SRD. HW is the most major service in our Department, because we only not entertain service internally but also externally (for our stores). A lot of people been calling here and there and I was really been running around all over our work place. And in the afternoon, something happened. One of our AVR that is supporting our UPS for our 3 Server got problem and I get to change another new AVR first. Then after 5 minutes, we smell like something is burning and I realize that it was the new AVR that we change is burning, 2 servers are already down and the major server is still continuing but nearly going dead. My full concentration was on that server because our server cannot go dead unless we really do no have a choice. Then at last, i found the solution. But while I was on my momentum, this person shock me up that make me angry and shout at him and I almost cried because I suddenly burst out. I was really really mad at him during that time, because I cannot find the reason why did he do that for? To change the mood? it's okay to change the mood but not during that time, it's not proper.

Day 2 : Pressure still on me, because we are still lack of people. but I was able to handle the situation in good condition and I am satisfied on that day.

RESPONSIBILITY is really a challenge in me, because if you ask me.... I am not a responsible person, even my friend says that I am a responsible person, because that is how and what I feel. This is me, i know what I feel and I know what I do. But in this work, i think i must push that inorder to survive >.<

!@#%!@ really happens >=(

guys, sorry about the word that I will say but sh!t really happens when you are just living in your own and quite world. Because someone hacked my yahoo account and guess what?! He or She is asking load from the people in my ym list. Here's my story, it's 4pm today and I'm at my office, I visit my dentist to have some checkup and after an hour that I get back (so that makes it 5pm) I got sign-out on my ym. I didn't mind first, because I though that our internet just got intermittent and I got sign-out then when I log-in for how many time and my friend starting to text me about something "Are you asking for load?" I said no and I told them that I have a hunch that I got hack. And after I have log-in a lot of times, that i have proven that I got hack. My friend was asking me, who is that person and why will that hacked me? I said, I cannot think of anyone because my account is just a year and half old; and I also do not know the purpose of that person @_@ I just wish that, whoever hack my account will get his/her karma it time...

...Rain...

Rain reminds me of who I am and what I am before. Rain gives me the sad feeling but I don't mind about it because that is the way i grow up. Everytime when it rains, something sad always happen to me at the same time. Yesterday, when I got home around 8pm, it rain so hard and it remind of me of what I am before, but I am not sad... that's the only time that I can reminisce what really I am.

at last... first wish came true...

at last, one of my wish came true. And this is it!!! ^^v I reach my first ever wish :D It's really hard but also same time happy. Guess, when you want something in life (like things, goals, etc.) and when you work hard for it, it really feels great. I hope I can have my other wish come true :D

I am really happy that because at last, i got my first wish. Know why? because I like taking pictures and capture every good moment in every chance that I got :D more pictures to update here i guess? ^^v

Troma part 2?

Oh my~ what happen O.O I didn't expect this to happen.  We ICT Group go out at the same time and our boss suddenly come to our room and all she can see is an empty room >.<  and when I get back I hear from my other department says that our boss is looking for us and she look frustrated ('o') and I rush to her to make it up but it didn't happen but I am still glad that she didn't get mad at me, instead she talk to me seriously regarding our issues and our work style... and yes, she has a point.. I feel so shame about that... but know what's more trouble?  My people, don't want to listen what I am saying and even how I feel.  Guess, that's why I don't want to be boss all along because I am not so strict at people and people don't listen to me....

1 and 1/2 year and still going strong... choices...

wow~ days really past so fast and look at us now... still going strong and I am very happy to tell all the people in the world that you are the greatest guy I've ever met in my whole life.  My other friend says that, that is just now because we'll never predict what will happend in the future and know what I've told them?  Furture is for us to decide and the only thing we need to do is to stand on our right decision and make the right choice in life.  In life, we make a lot of choices, some are wrong and some are right.  But it's still the point of view of each individual, what if person A has a choice and he feels its the right choice? but other says it's wrong?  In life, we have our own choices in each of our own point of view.  That's why in life, you cannot dictate that persons choice because you are not the one who holds the life of other people.  And we stand by own choices.  That staying with you for the rest of my life is my choice, giving you up not easily is also my choice and Loving your for the rest of my life is my feeling for you to the end and I will stand my decision till the end.  Happy Monthsary my dearest and Love you very much, always and forever *HuGs*

I am happy with my life and I hope other people in the world are also happy like me spending time with your family, friends and loved one.

First time work on Saturday

Sept 1, 2007 was my first ever saturday work at office and guess what? it's cool and I can concentrate more than the usual. Well, the reason why I go to work on that day is because I need to finish some work stuffs and yes I finish it on time and I am glad that they liked my work :D

Linux makes me mad @_@

Linux really made me mad @_@ hahahaha.. but though I enjoy it 'cause at least I learn new things aside from windows? :p but Linux really gave me a lot of hard times because I am not good at DOS type of application because Linux is much more on DOS Type. In my current work, this is my first time hands-on in Linux and somehow it feels great (because I learn new things) and hard (because it give me hard time to learn, need fast research all the time :p) well just wish me luck on my work on Linux :D

It's been a while... -- Lunar Eclipse --

wow~ days really past so fast and it's been a while that I haven't post... really sorry guys... because of work stuffs.

Yesterday; Aug 28, 2007, the world experience Lunar Eclipse. In Philippine times, is starts around 6pm till 720pm but really sad because during that time Manila area experience cloudy and rainy nights.. really sad that I didn't see that once in a lifetime Lunar Eclipse..


But they said that Lunar Eclipse will happen again on year 2010? Will it happen again? We all don't know but I am hoping ^^v

wow~ got approved

yes~! I got approved from Google AdSense. Thank you for my dearest friend jemme for referring me and to Google thank you for giving the chance ^^v Hope this click on me ^^v

17 months...

17 months.. and still going strong and I am very happy I just hope this will go on and on till the future :D yesterday was really rocky and I didn't really meant to cry because of disappointment but maybe because of sadness, I am really sorry for that and making your worry about me. I know you are in to your work, that is why I don't want to interfere but my feeling got over flow. but life must go one and I am very happy to have you in my life though we have our ups and downs I still want to be with you for the rest of my life. Because you accept me of what I am...

72% Addict XD~

haha... a great site that I saw, when I drop by a blog of a friend of mine XD~
72%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?wow~ I can't believe it... got this result after the test... why don't you try it? and see what's your result ^^v

credits : Mingle² + Jehz Concept

xpango.com?

I visited a site that is quite catch :D i don't know if that will work.. but base on the testimonials on the their website, it work... try it... there's nothing to lose ^^V click the picture... no one knows you might get the free gift you want? ^^

About Three Things...

I happen to visit my friends' blog again and I saw this funny questions so I just answer it...

Three Things That Scares Me
1. Lose my sweet angel
2. Lose my family
3. Lose my friends

Three People Who Make Me Laugh
1. sweet angel
2. jack, jhez
3. salvador, mavs

Three Things I Love
1. baking
2. Graphic Designing
3. writing blog

Three Things I Hate
1. liar
2. back biter
3. people who judge other just because of their appearance

Three Things I Don’t Understand
1. math
2. physics
3. chemistry :p

Three Things On My Desk
1. Keyboard
2. Mouse
3. Cell Phone

Three Things I Am Doing Right Now
1. working
2. writing blog
3. visiting my favorite BH

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die
1. Spend my time with sweet angel
2. Spend my time with my family and relatives
3. Spend my time with my friends

Three Things I Can Do
1. assist my boss
2. being resourceful again
3. Hardware

Three Things I Can’t Do
1. be a responsible boss
2. fly?
3. still not a good skater

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To
1. Yourself
2. Parents
3. Trusted Friends

Three Things You Should Never Listen To
1. Untrusted Friends
2. liers
3. Scammers

Three Things I Would Like To Learn
1. Software prgramming
2. Baking
3. Good Skating

Three Favorite Foods
1. Pasta
2. Pasta
3. Pasta

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid
1. X-men
2. Transformer
3. a lots lots of anime

July 30, 2007 -- last monday of the month

1 more day and it's August lah~ days really pass so fast and work is getting harder and harder and I need to work more harder and harder... today was quite tiring day because of installing stuffs and setting up a new network layout for our new building. I just realize now that, thinking such things till the end of your brain is really tiring... glad I have my food supplement with me =p that was my life saver :D I don't feel much stress because of that... I need to work more harder to give them an impression and to leave them with that because I really do not like to be a boss or manager because that is not a type of me.. well, maybe that can be learn but I don't feel like it. But my boyfriend always says that in life, we should go up and stand up inorder to grow... guess he's right...

Day 2 of I2

Today is the day two of my intermediate 1 class of nihongo center foudation inc. and i am very happy that i understand all the lesson that my prof teach, but lessons are getting tougher and I need to be attentive and not be late in class anymore because I'll be missing a lot.... I just realize now, that when you understand the lesson, it made me so happy but I do not know the reason why? Well, maybe it's because I learn new? I don't know... I just wish that I'll be able to understand all the lessons in my class till the end... Good Luck to me guys and hope you have a great weekend.... Take Care

Friday......

yet today is another end of the day and end of the week.. and another day and weeks passed again.. it's the 4th week of July... days really pass so fast and time also flies so fast that cannot wait for us. As for work, it's really getting harder and busier and I cannot have my playtime at office loh... and I need to get serious loh in order to work those stuffs out... really need to focus and concentrate lah~ but I'm really really tired of it... guess, work is really that... need to face all the challenge in work and life. whenever I got home these, I always go to sleep for few hours to get my energy back then eat dinner.. I wish I still have the same energy when I was still in my teenage days..

3day blog in one =p

Last Saturday (July 21) My first day of class in Nihongo Center Foundation Inc. in Intermediate 1 Class. Wow~ and I was really amaze on my teacher because he no longer speak Tagalog or English anymore in class TT_TT he speak pure japanese and 1% english if ever and this might be my challenge if I really want to continue my japanese class till the end I must try my very hard to achieve that goal. Practice Practice Practice is now in my mind always and I should do it~! Wish me luck, hello world ^^v I will try my very best to surpass this challenge.

Scared... I thought in y life, I would never be scare anymore but when you're just being quiet there I am starting to get scared because I do not know what you are thinking anymore. I am also scared to lose you 'cause I don't know what to do and I don't know how to go on with my life...

Today, I start to get serious on working and quit playing games now because I want to achieve my goals in life and hope I can do it... wish my luck in my life, hello world :D

Take Care you all~

... days ... weeks ...

days really past so fast.... and it's been days and weeks that we haven't much talk... we have the time during the weekend but it's not enough XD~ and I've been missing you loh~ guess life's really tough and I have to face that challenge. And speaking of challenge, my work also do challenge me and a lot of hard work needed here... wish me good luck....

...choices...

I've watch this movie that I'll always remember... it's about the choices we make... we choose what we can to and we choose what we decide to do. And there are a lot of choices that we can make, we do not know if our choices are right or wrong because of our point of view. Choices also has it's own point of view, that's why we do not know if the choices that we choose is right or wrong. We are the one's who are committed with the choices, the only time we know that the choices that we make is right or wrong because we have our point of view in life so we must think very carefully in making choices.

In life....

yet in life we really never get along huh? when we always meet, all we do is to agrue or lecturing me... why is that always happend? Do you think I am that dumb not to think what I am doing? Please see to it first that what I do before critisizing me. You always do that, not only to me but also to other people, can't you learn that? when other people critisize you, you feel offended and always speak out that as if you are always right or perfect @_@ Please don't... because each of us are not perfect. It make me think that I should make a margin with you, that never be close to you and don't care what you do to me. But please don't always guard or notice me just because you have nothing to do but always see me.

...June...

Month of June is the month of school... start of school and somehow I miss schooling... I still remember when I was still on schooling, I don't like books and studying... and now I graduate loh~ and missing of studying loh and realize that studying is fun. Actually, working is fun too when you like what you are working on but somehow it makes you feel tired than studying. June is also the month of rainy season and rainy season is already starting but sometimes it's hot also @_@ really don't know what the weather really want to feel XD~ sometimes cold sometimes hot but what I don't like is the air is hot, it feels hot already and it's also hard to breath because the air is hot.

... Sad but True ...

In relationship, you should know very well what "Sacrifice" means... it's not just a simple word that can say and do easily because it also mix with feelings. I somehow thought that I've already understand very well what that means, but then right now I realize that it takes a lot of courage to face that challenge in life. Challenging sacrifice is not that easy and now I need a lot of courage to face that challenge that I am currently in... it's been past few weeks and we don't have that long talk anymore, even date and I do really miss him soooo much. I'm telling this, is not mean in ranting because of this and that... I just want to tell you that I miss you soo much because we didn't have regular talk on phone anymore and we didn't been each other anymore that long for a week loh~ But I DO understand you and you have my full support because I DO love you so much. Just like I promise before, I will not do the things that what a common girlfriend do. Though sometimes I want your attention so much but I don't want to strangle you because I really cherish our relationship and want to keep it till the end. Now, what I know need to do is to wait for you and I know you will pick me up where I wait you.... MISS YOU SO MUCH and LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

... work ...

why I always have dumb decision on work? No matter how I try my best to avoid of being dumb I always get that result in the end. I just wish that I could avoid that one day. I didn't cried in that time when that happened. I just blame myself for my dumb decision and dumb work but why when he called me and ask for an apology I almost cried?

... sibling thing ...

guess in this life we can never be close.... since we were kid we never get close we just go for casual laugh only because when we get close we only get our conversation heat up and we don't agree on almost anything. Though I tried many times but i think there's no way anymore. I tried but I doubt you ever see it or felt it. Yeah yeah~ I know, no matter what I do or even the world round counter clockwise or the sun sets the other way around you are still my family and I cannot change that... but what I want to say that, eventhough we are family we can never be compatible for each other...

.. what a day ...

it's already end of the day and I thought I have done a lot of good things and in the end it turns out not... and I did the most dumbest thing in my work... I have deleted one of the folder files of our pmx and uhr.. gosh... it's really bad and I felt bad. Though my boss said it's okay... but still it reflect on my work duty.. I just hope I won't be doing that second time....

Tomorrow is my exam again on Nihongo Foundation and I wish I pass the test.... wish me luck...

... Labor Day ...

Good day everyone in the world... Today is the the first day of May and it's Labor Day... How's your Labor Day there in your country? I hope you guys are enjoying your labor day as well :) Here in the Philippines, some of the store are not open... well of course, it's labor day... but some store is also open. Today is the showing of Spiderman 3 and I am sure all the cinema here are loaded @_@ hahahaha... and it's a rest day for me.. thought I am here in the computer shop of my friend and not in the house... because house is sooo depressing.. aside from no internet a lot of people in the house... and tomorrow is normal day again loh~ back to work again... I hope you guys are enjoying your labor day :) Have a happy Labor day~

..another day...

yet another last day of the month... days really past so fast and it's already May tomorrow... hope you guys have a great month these past few months... Me? I still got a lot of rush project to do... it's already line up till the month of June... Wish me all the luck on my project and hope I can make them good and have my KRA result good =p

April...

wow~ days really past so fast and I haven't post for quite a while... 'cause I've been very busy on my work... and it's already 4th week of April so and summer is already starting... These past few days, it's really really hot here in the Philippines, I wish it would be colder sometimes ^^v I wish I could have a nice break after my long month of working with my deadline @_@ and this week I have my midterm on Nihongo Foundation, Kanji, reading and hearing and next week I will also have my continuation exam on Nihongo Foundation and this time is vocabulary and grammar, wish my luck on my exam :) Take Care you guys~ have a great day ahead ^^v

... Today ...

As for this month, there's a lot of project coming up because we are moving to the new building and I must finish those project next month... Today is the second of the last day of March and hope I can finish those manual and account and hope when they login, it won't have any problem at all.

After this week, next week we will only have 3 day of work 'cause of Holy Week ^^v weeee... from April 5 to 9, that means 5 days of no work *yeah~* \m/ And I will take that as an opportunity to have a nice relax vacation =D That also means that, this week I have to finish the stuff I need to finish ;)

for those who will have the same date vacation with me, Happy Vacation ;)

March Days

It's March already, days really past so fast... I just felt like January 2007 yesterday... Guess time really flies fast. March days... Graduation Days... Happy 2007 Graduation to those people who are graduating :)

Life really sucks @_@ 'cause my network walkman suddenly didn't work and I do not know what happened all I did what just to charge the phone and listen to my music, then suddenly when I will charge again my computer doesn't recognize my network walkman anymore TT_TT I do not know what really is the problem, it cannot be my usb drive because I am using usb keyboard and mouse. My friend told me, maybe it's a firmware problem.. Maybe? Maybe not... ~>.<~

28th Feb, 49th Day

28th Feb. 20007 is the 49th day since the day your apart from us. It's been how many days that you already apart from us, how are you? I know that it's kinda bad to hear for you to enter our dream but sometimes we want to know if how are you really doing? Dad said that if you don't let us dream, that means you're already fine and in Heaven. And of course, we are happy to hear that...

Changing the topic =p and it's been a while that i've write here XD~ don't worry i'll cope up with the days i've miss...

Welcome 2007...

Welcome 2007, Year of the PiG. Yet another year beginning. Hope it's a great year for all of us... On work, on personal life and on our future... I'm really happy because my grandmother is recovering now and hope that she will recover more and more until my birthday, because I wish that I could celebrate my birthday with her...

奇跡。。。 希望。。。

Miracle really do happen in life, I am not just saying this now because it just happen now, but I really do... it's just that, I do believe more because it really happen to me... not only me but to me and my family... It was really a miracle, every since that my grand mother confine at the hospital and very little improvement, we are not only physically tired but also mentally tired because we always think of her and worried, because we want her to recover fast and don't want to let her feel suffer... I am not blaming my grand mother that giving us hardship in worry but she's been a part of our family for almost many years... look she's 101 years old already and I am proud...

until last Sunday morning, my dad finally decide to let her go... my father already talk to his siblings about it and ready also to tell the doctor to let grand mother go.. but when he's about to tell the doctor, guess what our doctor said? "Hey, your grand mother is very strong did you know that? heart beat is slowly beating back to normal. Medicine that she's taking start lessening. If her case will improve always in few weeks later, she's out of danger...." the Doctor said. When my father heard, he was stun, not stun of shock but stun of happiness. My father got home and told us the news we where very happy, and he also told us that grand mother somehow opened her eyes. That's a good sign right?

We do hope for miracle in life and we also do hope that miracle happen but not always. But I think we do not choose who to believe to give us the miracle we want but they are the ones' who choose us to make us a miracle. They choose who has strong belief and strong faith and that is how they help us. Don't blame your religion if they don't make the miracle the way you want it. That only means that your belief and strong faith is not enough. And you still have doubts. We all say that we have strong belief and faith in them but in the back of our thoughts if there's still a doubt (even if we don't see it) they can see and feel it. But if you feel that you really have strong belief and faith, and if the miracle that you are hoping for didn't happen, maybe the time hasn't come yet or it wasn't meant for what you are wishing for or the time has come to let go. I know a quote that "Doubt is easy to built than trust" and that is true it proves, it's always in front of us, we just don't want to see it, we just don't want to face it and we just don't want to accept it. It's true that it's easier to say than to do but we have to face the fact that, that is the cycle of life. All we have to do is to be strong.

In Life...

In life, anything can happen anytime... you'll never predict what will happen next... seconds later, minutes later, hour later, day later... Life is too broad to predict even you can predict ones' future, you somehow still cannot avoid the happenings because it's faith. But we can change our faith by working out our present, but that won't work all the time. Every second, every minute, every hour, everyday counts. Love everything what is in your life, cherish everything what you have right now before it's gone. Be contented on what you have right now, never wish more that what can give. Life is like a bridge that we are crossing, well never know there is a hole in front of it. We might fall but sometimes we are rescue by the people around us, but sometimes in life that hole that you fall is meant to happen that we cannot do anything about it but to hold on to the hope and have strong faith that we will be saved. But if there is no one there to rescue you... it's true, life is unfair it can never be fair. You'll ask the question why, but that really meant to happen. That's why cherish everything what we have right now in life and be contented...

試験。。。

Judgment day already pass... it's yesterday... it was my exam on Japanese. I really wish I will pass the exam... on the first part of the exam, I got 40/100 I need 80 points to pass >.<
My friend says that I will pass, I just hope that I really will pass... it's just that my mind cannot help but to always doubt, I don't want to think that loh~ but it kept me thinking... now all I need is have a miracle to have 80 points to pass... I really hope that I will pass too... I really need to pass... i really want... just pray for me that I will pass, I will I will...

Have faith my Angel, you will pass the exam. you will, I know you can do it... even your friend is cheering you that means they believe in you :D stay strong, don't think negative. Because the more you think it negative the more negative aura will get near you... think positive okay, positive aura will be always by your side ;) Good luck my dear Angel...

now I know...

Few years before... I never fully understand why my best friend kept me the time what had happen to his grandmother. And I've also confront him, and I told him that I thought I was his best friend and what is the use of being close when keeping things to each other. I know that there are things that shouldn't be told to others but still there are some should. Right now, me and my family are facing a big challenge of our lives. My grandmother is already living for centuries, I know it's hard to believe but it's true. Last Wednesday (December 06, 2006) was her 101st birthday... but her Chinese birthday was November 16, 1907. 101 is count on the Chinese calendar. On that day, we never thought that the shock might happen to her. I thought that I am already strong enough to face all the types of challenges in my life but I was wrong... I am still very very weak.

Right now, my grandmother is confine in the hospital. Medicine are the only thing that is pushing her to live and make her live. She can hear, feel... I know that, but it's just that she cannot wake up anymore because of the brain damage. Me and my family really hope for a big miracle, and hope that will happen. But if not, please give us the sign first before getting our grandmother. She's important to us. If she really want to release the line please give us line so we will be strong in releasing the line also. Until now, no sign is given that is why we are still holding tight the line not to let her go. I know, you guys will say 'that's life, we should learn to let go and move on' That's true in life. But it's harder doing it than say.. just give us the sign... just one sign...

None of my friend know this, unless one but still it isn't my best friend. Now I know and understand how my best friend feel when his grandmother was confine in the hospital... I am really sorry my dearest best friend, I just hope that in that time, I understand you first than confronting you... Hope you'll forgive me...

surprises....

There's a lot of surprises in life.. I thought I will always be ready for that... but I was wrong... I was soo weak and unprepare... when will I learn from those experience to be stronger than ever?

Christmas is getting near... only 15 days to go... what are you guys doing for Christmas? Hope you guys will have a great Christmas this year... ^^v

Shiken....

There goes my exam yesterday... there was a lot of people there and it's a very little chance that I might get on top... I just wish that I pass the exam I am contented and as my learning lesson to study hard everytime so I won't have hard time when big exam come....

And as for those bad memories, I really wish that I have an amnesia for they will be gone... I know I know that, that just running away from my problems... but I don't have a choice already so I think that as a solution in my life... am I thinking that I cannot carry those problems in my life anymore? I hope I still can... just like before.. even in my face you cannot see it...

Thought I've never cry again...

As I grow... a lot of thins had happen... so much hurtful that I've felt, I told myself that I'll never cry again... and I also told myself that I won't easily trust other people again but I still always do... I know that every person have right to live and deserve a second chance, but why they waste it?

At first I try to be open to him but I can't, I don't know why... I thought the problem was in me... but I was wrong, the problem was in "him". Shouting at me out of no reason. Does he really respect my sister? If he do, then why shout me? Because of wasting his time? If he really felt that I waste his time, why fetch my sister? He didn't even respect me, by shouting me in front of my sister. My boyfriend can do the things he cannot do, which is spending his time with me and my family and never think that we are a waste of his time. if Nelson felt that I waste his time, he's not in-love with my sister. He's after something and I'm sure of it. The hell with him, sorry for my rude words but I was so shock and it hurt me so much that I almost cried in the middle of the street. I thought I've already lost and get rid of those feelings already, but I was wrong, it was sleeping within me just like Black Winged Angel.


Now he have awaken Black Winged Angel, should I thank him? or should he be careful with me starting right now? because I will have my full Black Winged Angel take over me and get rid of him. I can't blame my sister, for me it's between me and him. If he can shout me in front of my sister and he's still not in our family yet, how much in the future if he married my sister? He can shout her anytime, anywhere. I will get rid of him no matter what, he's really dealing with the wrong person. He started the fire. Before he will do more flame, I will start earlier than him, he wants to start hell? I will show him and let him feel it first and the worst. I will never ever forgive him, he has no right to do that to me. Yah, I know I know, God can forgive why can't we...? That's why I was decent here, an angel was created but a different one and that is me... Black Winged Angel... the Angel of Death...

...Black Winged Angel.... revived...

As we all know Angel are sent by GoD to watch over the people who are good... for me I treat myself as one of those but I am different... as I am sent by God, but decent here to watch over people that I care about... the different thing is... I am a black winged angel... a good one but sometimes I can become evil, by doing something that angel shouldn't be doing... I know it's wrong but still I cannot help doing wrong sometimes.. guess people or even angels are not born or created perfect.

Thought I was changed... and thought I already leave Black Winged Angel already... yet I think the Black Winged Angel is just sleeping inside of me, and now it revived again... and it's time to have it revived...

Exams...

exams exams exams... exams are here again... sacrifice are to be made again... I really really miss him a lot but we have to work for our future... It's sad but we have to do what we need to do... guess sacrifice never ends... but I know it's worth it...

Cross finger... I only have one week left for my JLPT exam.. wish me luck XD~

Take care guys.. hope you guys have a great day ahead.. ^_~

Sacrifices... a worth while...

Many things have happen to me.... since I graduated at College, work, life, and until now... There are things that I do for good, but why it never seen by other people? It kept bury always... Does it have to be always that way? Or it's just not on the right time? -- these are the question that I usually question myself that left without an answer... but now I learn about it... making sacrifices don't need answer all the time... and making sacrifices don't need to see or feel by all the people because you cannot please all the people around you... Well, facing the fact, although it really hurt me but I have nothing to do with it, that is the Law of Life, you can't take it? live with it.. but I also realize that making sacrifices needs time and it's a worth while...

Ain't that enough?

it's Monday again, and my weekend are filled with sadness that I cannot avoid... It always occur on my mind no matter what I do to forget it. Even though that I do not want to think about it, it always pop on my mind. I know only ourself can understand the feeling of our gut. But when you raise it to the person that you are concern, ain't that enough? ain't that enough that you are concern to them? Oh well, but all that she did was laugh, glad I get use to people not get serious on me. well, I just hope that I will ate my words and guts, if I am wrong. But I also found out that recently it's not only me who have that not good feeling, but also my parents -_-; But oh well, I am just the youngest of all in the house. I cannot do anything, even I state my feelings and ideas. Why? Can the guy support her future? Can the guy support her a good life? and Can the guy support her till the end? even his family? He doesn't even have a stable job right now? I didn't mean that he is really jobless but his job is on and off. How can a guy like that support his girlfriend or wife in the future right? I know I am too early to judge a him like that, but my mind keep on telling me that something is really wrong with that guy... this already bugging me for how many days. I try to open to him but it still didn't work. If he can prove to me, all of my questions and doubts I will accept him, and I will accept that my guts, and intuition are wrong. BUT~ if he fails, I will be the first one in the family who will confront him.

Today at work, I don't quite work because I quite catch cold because of the weather change @_@ glad I didn't have cough, har har har... and my head near going to freeze because it's cold her in the office >.> and hope I can resume work normally tomorrow. ho ho ho~ but even that happens I am still happy at the office... :p Well, till here, hope you guys have a great day~

Get use to...

In life, we learn a lot of lesson as we grow up... and I am really glad that I am get used to it... specially people not get serious on me when I talk something quite important. Well, that maybe not important to other people but hey~ it's important to me... Glad I get use to that because I remember way back when I am not get use to it, I get angry to myself because people don't take me seriously... And I also learn that in life, you should always be ready for anything, I MEAN "anything"

November Times...

hello November.. belated Happy Holloween :D November November November, only few days pass and it will December loh~ and on November 19, 2006 I'll be 6months working at Primer loh~ :D Hope I can be regular loh~ :D and hope I don't get my 3 days suspension because of having 6 lates TT_TT because last month I got late for 6 times because of tardiness, a.k.a. tamad :p

Well, only 2days to count sweet angel and I will be 8months loh~ days really past so fast, it's like just few days ago the we are official and now we are 8months loh~ I hope this continue till we get old :D

As for work, well... I get more project lah~ and hope I can finish these in November so I can relax in December and have a nice Christmas break...

I just realize recently that in life, we should make wise decision for our future. And also I realize that I can make more sacrifice for my love one.... that I thought I can't guess when you really love your loveones you can do everything... althought quite feel sad because you have to sacrifice your feelings and what you need to do just for your loveone...

Lesson Learned...

Today a lot things had happen... from very early morning up to work -_-; days sometimes really start bad, hope in the end of the day it will turn out good... Today, I also learn that if two people have the same attitude... one should let the way, but what if the other puts you on rever psychology? Because for me, when someone do that I change my decision immediately but why other people refuse suddenly? I didn't do that to make them second thought of what they want to do... but why that always happen? I adjust for other people but how come they do not understand that? I just hope one day they could understand me...

The Gift...

Recently I cook food for my sweet angel.. but not only for him but also for his family... why? because I wanted to... My family knows sweet angel already... and in return I cook food for his family in order to know me.. and that is the first step I made.. cooking food for his family is just a little things that I've done... I just done it twice, so it's not a big deal for me... just a things that I've done to know me... then yesterday, I gone to his house and I receive a gift from his mother... he gave me the gift because his mother gave it to him and told him that she want to gave me the gift... I was shock but I was also happy but I was very shy to receive the gift because I didn't do big things to give me that gift...

Well, right now when I think about that... I just thank you her for the gift and like sweet angel said, 'maybe this is the first step?'

^^v have a nice day guys ;)

October Fest ~

well, it's October loh~ and days really past SO fast @_@ and we are already 7 months loh~ I am very happy with my sweet angel... There are so many things happen in 7 months and I am very happy and contented with my life now~

Recently, I have a friend having problem with his gf little sister... well, can't tell here because the story is long :D I just really with hope that my advise help him a lot~ really sad when I heard his story... and I hope I was there to help him too....

sorry just post now.. and it's been two weeks in draft mode XD~

Happy October Fest guys~ :D

for almost 3 days...

hello... guess you guys already heard about the signal no.3 typhoon here in the Philippines... >.<

for almost 3 days we do not have electricity and telephone line... so, what we do is stay at home on thursday and friday and resume work at saturday @_@ and now, I just realize that I do not get use to work at saturday schedules again... -o- guess, working back on normal hours have it's disadvantage too... 'cause you will have a hard time in adjusting your schedule loh~

And our nihongo class a while ago, got cancelled so I go swimming with my friend and kareshi because I do not want to go to office without taking a bath @_@ and now working at the office I don't feel like working and all of us here don't feel like working... -0-

Today is also the last day of September, hope tomorrow is a good day for all... For October will be entering :) Have a great day to all the people out there :)

Happy...

As for September 04, 2006, we are officially 6months... can you imagine that? Days really past so fast talaga~ but before that... you gave me the most specialy gift I've ever receive in my life... that was September 02, 2006... I wasn't expecting that, and I am very very happy and very very thank you that you gave me that... I really do not know what to say when I saw that in that day because I was very very happy and my tears almost fall down on my cheeks... and another thing that I am very happy is that we are already 6months loh~ I never regret on all the things that we've been through and I am very happy being with you... I wish our stay longer more and we'll work it out~ Love you my dearest sweet angel of my life~

Well, two week left for me to coupe up my study in nihonggo~ because on September 30, 2006 is our midterm loh~ hope I pass ,,x,,>.<,,x... lets have a cross finger~

Well, work here at the office is getting hectic every now and then loh~ I wish I can catch up in updating my blog~

September...

Welcome September; oh well, late a work -_-; I just hope that I won't be late for the whole month XD~ and yet still have the same busy days doing IT stuff... tomorrow have a lot of schedule to deal with, namely my nihongo class, our company seminar and going to RP for my friends new open shop... well, I just hope that I hope get haggard by that :P

Last day of the month...

Today, August 31, 2006; yet another last day of the month... listening to my favorite BoA Kwon Song while writing this blog...

Well, all I can say is yet another busy day, go here and there with IT stuff rolling XD~ I haven't review my Nihongo because of busy days here at the office... hope I can coupe up when I get home tonight =) And as for my dearest sweet angel, Always remember that I am always here for you no matter what happens...

August 25...

last friday of the month... days really pass by sooo fast... at last my application for part time barista at starbucks have reply although I still have to wait for six weeks at least I have a reply from them ^_~ Just finish writing my end of the day report and say I'm already working for 3months XD~ and I still enjoy working here although that sometimes I have rush projects but still I getto enjoy the environment here... and as for my Japanese language lesson, I must study harder this time because Elementary 3 is much harder than Elementary 1 and 2 and I cannot just pass the exam by luck or by chance I must do it... so wish me luck XD~

August...

yet another month have passed away... days really pass so fast and I still haven't done anything much. These days I've been quite busy because of testing and making reports... I've done my best and I hope it does change something ^_^

I want to greet uber belated happy 26th birthday to my sweetest angel~ sorry if I just get to greet you now because I was really really busy '>.<' well, still I greet you in personal in that day :)

Welcome month of August, wish I can do lot more in this month aside from being busy on my work =)

A Night to remember. . .

It was July 16, 2006; from manila we go to sucat and back to manila... that was the farthest place I travel with you... and it hit 12hours that we're together. We both meet new friends and we are happy to meet them. And I'm also happy because I am with you...

In the car, that what we have that is the most beautiful memory thatI'll never forget... and I will tell you once again that I never regret all the things I've done.

I love you very very much and I'll love you till the end

A Promise Made...

In my life, living for 23 years 5months and 17days... a lots of things happend. Sad memories, happy memories, and pain memories. I've felt all of it... but still I live. Right now, I have this friend of mine.. he's feeling the most painful in his life recently, that never let me(us) know... know why? because he is my(our) sensei... and facing the fact, I do not have the right to know everything happening in hislife... but oh well, masyado akong pakialamera kasi XD~ but true to tell I was very concern when I know that was happening to him. The reason why I felt that way because I not only treat him as my sensei but also as watashi nga tomodachi desu.

July 08, 2006. Today I have this Nihongo exam and I am facing this challenge. a lot of people is supporting me one of them are my parents, sweet angel and my friends =) and I promise thatI will try my very very best to PASS this exam because I do not what to disappoint the people who are giving me the full support and love. And also I do not want to waste sensei Juntaro teaching... And this is a Promise that I will made...

:: july 08 2006 ::

Insight....

of all the things that had happen to us... I Thank you for not giving me up that easily and thank you for always be on my side.. and Thank you for coming to my life..

I also want to let you know that I also won't give you up easily and I will always be at your side when you need me... I never did know that you think that way... Letting me go? I really never do think of that you thought of that.. but I'm sorry to tell you that I do not agree. Even if that happens, I will wait for you no matter how long it will take me, I rather take all the pain challenges than easily giving you up and letting you go.. Remember this, I LoVe you "so" much and I will always love you till the end...

LoVe You So much my sweetest dearest angel...

sorry...

I know I'm such a fool but I do really care and love you... that's why I kept some of the feelings for myself because I do not want you to worry about me. Hope you forgive me on what I've done...

Actually, it's not about boundaries issue... because I don't let that keep our way... It's just that, I think hindi pa tlga maayos ang buhay ko... you've done so much for me and ayan, ganyan pa rin ako... >.< I am really sorry... sometimes ang gulo ko pa rin and you've been so nice to me pa rin... I hope mapantayan ko yung mga ginawa mo...

I LoVe YoU "SO" much and I will LoVe you till the end...

Everything just happend....

For two days (11th&12th June) we've been together and the feeling of I miss you and love you is more than before . . . Things just happen unexpectedly, I am happy because we're together.... having you in my life I have nothing ask for more..

My friend once told me that when I found the one, the more days past the stronger my love will be to that right now... and yes, she's right... I miss you more and I love you more when days are passing by... not only you will build this relationship but I will help you to build it...

I thank you for everything you've done for me... having long patience waiting for me to adjust and everything... this time, I will do my thing as your dear angel... love you and care you with all I can and with all my life... I will always be by your side when you need me... the things that you didn't felt when you were young, I know I have nothing to do with it anymore but now I found you I will fill my love in your life and fill the things that you never felt before... I cannot change the past but I will do everything I can to make you feel loved and happy now in present and until the future...

I know it's too early to say but I want to say this.... when I am in your arms I feel secure and loved... and I feel that we are as one... I love you very much my dearest sweetest angel of my life

Unexpected. . .

Yesterday was our special day and it's already our 3rd Monthsary I really never expected it... our love grew stronger and stronger.... I don't know what to do when I'm without you.... and I really do not know what will happen to me when I haven't met you... guess the long life wait is a worth waiting... and..

Guess in life, Expect the Unexpected... ^^v

Love you my dearest sweetest angel of my life...

I found you...

May 23, 2006. The day we talk... the conversation... for I will never ever forget... you really gave me a lot of happy memories that I will never ever forget... guess making you cry not always feeling sad but also the feeling of happy...

For you are my one and only that I will love till the end of time... till next life... you and only you I will find and love....

The Future.... A Challenge...

"Future" a word single word, but no one can ever fortell... and it's a challenge for us...

Even you tell me that... I am alright... don't worry, I will be fine... for you... I will try my very best. I will take all the challenge, I will face all the risk... just to be with you.... It's a challenge for me.... :)

New Life... New Chapter Beginning...

A New Life... A New Chapter Beginning...

Today is my first day at Primer Groups under the Primer International Holdings and Management... Although that we are only less than 10 here, they still give me a warm welcome and I am very happy of what they did.... I hope I can stay long here in this company ^^;

As a new life having a new job... and I consider this as a new chapter of my life....

May....

Another month have passed... and days really pass soooo fast... and guess what? Here in the Philippines, also have BoA fans club.... and I am very happy to be part of that group =D and also I am very happy to know a lot of intresting people....

Trials. . . Decision. . .

In life... there are a lot of trials... and for me, making decision is a very big trial in my everyday life... making decision is very important and you'll be responsible on the outcome of your decision... and making decision is a very very sensitive case matter... Making the Right Choice and Right Decision will bring us to the Right road... so that is why we must think carefully or make thorough thinking before make a decision...

Waiting . . .

As I was waiting at the bus stop
I saw a lot of people going in and out of the bus
Some with happy faces
And some with tears in their eyes
I fell happy and sad for those people
Not riding in that bus doesn't mean I am afraid
I just don't want to ride the wrong bus
That will take me to the wrong journey

The reason why I always wait at the bus stop
Is to wait for the right person to fetch me
Because I want to spend my journey and adventure
With that person forever
Sharing journey and adventure together
with LoVe and Care...

And I think the day has come
You fetch me from where I am waiting
We finally found each other

Now that we're together,
I am very happy about us, about everything
Because you share your journey and adventure with me
And you accept my journey, my adventure,
And as what I am
I wish time is endless when we're together
Spending our journey and adventure together
With LoVe and Care that never dies

I Love you so much my one and only dearest sweetest angel of my life~
>(^*^)<

.::. March 04.::.

Happy April Fools Day ^-^

Hi there guys~ it's been a while ^_^ Happy April Fools Day =p

These past few days I had an interview(s) and the last two interviews are very cool... I hope I can get either one of the offer... but if you let me choose between two I'll choose the GMLink because I much prefer that than the STech. well I hope I can get these two offers so I can have a choice... wish me luck >(^_^)<

Second Time Around. . .

Falling in love for the second time around. . .
When our eyes met, I saw a spark in you
A spark that is unexplainable
But I didn't mind at all
Because I thought it was nothing at all

As years past, we became close
As we know each other more
I always enjoy your company
I feel happy and secure when we're together
And not knowing I started liking you

I never really thought of it
I never realize that my feelings for you is growing
Until the day came

Then I realize, that the spark I saw in you
Was the sign,
The sign that you will a part of my life
By always making me smile and feel happy
By making my days unexpectedly special
that I'll never trade for anything

Now that we're together
I will cherish all the moments that we have together
All the memories that you bring to my life
I will never ever forget it
As long as I live. . .

I love you so much my dearest sweet angel. . . ^o^

.::. 04 March 2006 .::.

Fully Booked

at last, for long wait... wish me luck for my interviews next week. Hope I can get in a job that I wanna be ^^;

A New Chapter Beginning... A New Life...

Hi... it's been a while since I write here... sorry for that, because my pc got busted >.<>

Guess... luck in life will not come into your life in just one hit.. it gives you the partial then another then another... (Love, Carrer, etc.) and everything happens in your life, there's always a reason behind in it... ^^;

March 09, 2006 exact 9:04PM, when I was at our penthouse I suddenly look up into the sky to look for the moon.. a guess what I saw? In that night, that was just only a half moon but it shines like a full moon that shines so bright and clear. So bright that you can saw its flare and ray that the moon shows. That was the first time I saw a half moon shines so bright and I'll never ever forget it....

Numerology... Major Personality Traits...

well, walang lang.. trip trip ko lang... it's fun~

Day of Birth -- a brief, first look at your character
24

You are family-oriented, with a gift for restoring and maintaining balance and harmony in relationships.

You are emotional and sensitive and like to demonstrate your love. You have a gift for both the healing and cultural arts.

You can be overly emotional and even melodramatic. You have a tendency to magnify your emotional issues, especially when they involve some kind of criticism of you.

You are willing to sacrifice much to maintain harmony in important relationships. You willingly provide a soft shoulder to cry on or a ready ear to hear out someone's travail.

You are energetic, responsible and helpful, but your sympathetic nature may cause you to interfere in relationships and get you into trouble.

Your artistic talent goes in many directions, but you are likely gifted in acting and drama. At the same time, you generally do well in business because you are systematic, careful, and patient in your approach to business issues.

You can be a bit impractical, however, and need others to give you sound advice. You are a good friend and a faithful companion. You attract sound people to you who gladly advance you along the lines of your talents.
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(Birth) Life Path -- your natural tendencies, abilities, and attitude toward the world.

1 - New beginnings, creative thought, new opportunities and individuality.
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[9] Destiny (Expression) -- the purpose, goal, and direction of your life; what you will tackle and manifest

Communication, friendship and partnerships play a large role in the lives of people with 2,3 or 9 as a Destiny Number. If you have such a Destiny Number you will need to work at developing acceptance, honesty, social skills and insight.
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[8] Heart's Desire -- your inner motivation and most cherished values; what you choose to undertake
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Personality -- your outward appearance and how others see you; what they define as you Habit

Personality Number is 2You appear friendly and unpretentious. You have a soft and warm exterior. People are drawn to you because, among other reasons, you appear warm and unthreatening. Your dress is neat and clean. The opposite sex is attracted to your gentle and attentive nature, yet senses the passion beneath your surface. You have sex appeal. Exercise is important to your appearance and to promote the level of strength you radiate. You are very patient and understanding, and a wonderful listener. You make others feel important and loved. You are sensitive. You are a peacemaker. Arguments leave you drained. People sense your desire for harmony. But you must avoid being the blank tablet for others' projections. People may underestimate your strength, but this is a mistake.
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Realization -- the sum total of your Birthpath and Destiny; your achievement in this life

Birthpath [1] + Destiny [9] = 10 -- 1 +0 = 1
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The Pinnacles -- the environment, people, and opportunities indicated in the four phases of your life

[7 = age 0-29] First Pinnacle: The First Pinnacle develops your character. It is there for very personal reasons. This is a time when we develop our egos and define our sense of self.

[9 = age 28-36] Second Pinnacle: The Second Pinnacle represents the summer of life. This pinnacle influences our relationships with our family members and the way we direct responsibility where others are involved.

[7 = age 39-47] Third Pinnacle: In the Third Pinnacle, also known as "middle age", we mature and enter the autumn cycle of life.

[4 = age 51 on] Fourth Pinnacle: The last Pinnacle wants to bring rewards and opportunities to use the knowledge gained through our life's experience.
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Your Personal Year is what you must accomplish during the course of the year.

PERSONAL YEAR 6This year centers around the Home and Family. You can buy, sell, or redecorate a home or other properties. Your focus is on Personal Relations......Marriage..Divorce.... Affairs. Others will need things from you. Your family members are in focus. You can cement great friendships and find new and long lasting ones. (for year 2006)

if you wanna know your Numerology just click~

Days.... Unsure.... Losing...

hi.. how are you? it's been a while that I haven't write here... =) I wasn't home these days, I was at the hospital to look after my grandma.... even though that I feel sleepy I still want to write because I miss writing here...

Days really past so fast and next week will be the mid-week of February... and I am still on job hunting... >.<>

In life, we never know what will happen tomorrow... the feeling of unsure really worries me... I really hope that I can control my emotions because when I think about that... not only worry I feel but also hurt because I am afraid of losing.... well, I guess that always happens when you really love a person... ^^;

sleepy head...

I'm still sleepy right now because I didn't sleep last night. I was looking after my grandma at the hospital.

Yesterday, my grandma got confine in the hospital because of her condition... and guess what?! my grandma is already 100 years old~ ^o^ and she's still alive and kicking.... but only her condition make her loose energy... I just hope that she get well soon, because I've been missing the grandma who is alive and kicking... ^o^

And tonight, I will look after her again... but hope I can rest a little because I have skating lesson tomorrw, so I can have a little stamina energize =p well, i'm off to the hospital now~ ciao...

Neul...

u-ri eol-ma ma-nin-ga-yo
ch'a mo-raen shi-ga-ni heul-reo-ne-yo
wae cha-ggu nae ma-mi a-p'eun keon-chi
wae-geu-ri a-p'a-ha-na-yo
hok-shi-ra-do him-deu ni ri-seo-na-yo
wae a-mu-mal-ha-ji an-na-yo

chi-geu-min-de keu-dae a-p'in-de
ma-rae-yeo ha-neun-de na-ye ma-eu-meul
o-raen shi-gan keu-dae-reul hyang-han
ki-reo-deon nae ki-da-ri-meul
pa-bo kat'-jyo hang-sang keu-rae-jyo
keu-rae-ya hae-jyo keu-dael wi-hae-seo
sa-rang-hae-yo yeo-jeo-ni kam-sa-hae-yo

wae nal chap-ji a-na-na-yo
wae a-mu-geot-do mut-ji a-na-na-yo
keu-dae eobt-neun nae-ga kwaen-j'a-neul keot kat'-na-yo

chi-geu-min-de keu-dae a-p'in-de
ma-rae-yeo ha-neun-de na-ye ma-eu-meul
o-raen shi-gan keu-dae-reul hyang-han
ki-reo-deon nae ki-da-ri-meul
pa-bo kat'-jyo hang-sang keu-rae-jyo
keu-rae-ya hae-jyo keu-dael wi-hae-seo
sa-rang-hae-yo yeo-jeo-ni kam-sa-hae-yo

na al-go i-seo-yo nae-ga keu-dae-ye-ge
ma-ji-ma kan-ga-ji hae-jul su i-neun keo-shi
i-byeol-bbu-ni-ra-neun keot

i-je-seo-ya kkae-da-reun na-ye
mo-ja-ran sa-rang-eul yong-seo-hae chweo-yo
sa-rang-hae-yo yeo-jeo-ni kam-sa-hae-yo
sa-rang-hae-yo i-ma-ri ha-go shi-p'eo-jyo..

To be LoVeD. . . .

I can see your face everywhere I look
but everywhere is nowhere without you
what seemed to be like days was just a momment in time
but it meant the world to me 'cause I knew

What I've been searching for all of my life
I had it right here - in front of my eyes
and what I've wished for was nothing compared
to what I received - when you were here with me

And if you'll never come back
and today was all that we had
and if I won't see - tomorrow with you in my arms
it won't matter because
now I know what it's like to be loved

You're so far away but I feel you so near
it's like you never left me - never said goodbye
I can hear your voice in the crowd
I can feel your touch me right now
I can see your smile when I close my eyes

And I hold on to that every night
to help me understand - when I asked myself why
of all the people out there - you choose be with me
to share a love so rare

And if you'll never come back
and today was all that we had
and if I won't see - tomorrow with you in my arms
it won't matter because
now I know what it's like to be loved

what a beautiful thing - to feel your love within
like a child that sees the sunshine on the first day of spring
just to know it's true - there is someone like you
who can make me believe there is nothing I can't do

If you'll never come back
and today was all that we had
and if I won't see - tomorrow with you in my arms
it won't matter because
Now I know what it's like To Be LoVeD

To Be LoVeD. . .

Happy momments at Starbucks....

well, at last I got the pics at my 23rd birthday... the last place we go before we go home... our happy momments at Starbucks...~

sorry the right menu links will be on the lower right for a while... ^o^

Worries...

yesterday's converstaion gives me worry today... and facing the fact I cannot stop worrying because I am scared of what will happen next... and hope what I am thinking won't happen... because I really really love him and I don't want to loose him... I didn't show it to him yesterday when we were together because I don't want him to worry about me....

But if that will happen, I might get hurt again... but if he is really not for me... I have to let it go... But...

我只想要...

怎么說忘就忘記 這甜蜜的過去
被思念包著厚厚的糖衣
不想再為了你傷心 這最冷的夏季
慢慢地慢慢結成冰

承諾變悲哀 悲哀因我被愛
悲哀是因為你不在我
好想抱著你訴苦 卻顯得好無助
無助的讓人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起
朝著幸福走去 像戀人般的簡單甜蜜
我只想要和你不分离
怎么輕易放棄 說你忘記

我想這一定是報應 都怪我太貪心
才讓你頭也不回的离去
黃色絲巾是想念 在樹上被風吹
孤單的 孤單一個人無法沉睡

承諾變悲哀 悲哀因我被愛
悲哀是因為你不在
我好想抱著你訴苦 卻顯得好無助
無助的 讓人想痛哭

我只想要和你在一起
朝著幸福走去 像戀人般的簡單甜蜜
我只想要和你不分离
怎么輕易放棄 說你忘記

愛情怎么會讓每顆心都碎

我不再相信你 卻又慢慢想起你

sharing.... happy momments... and story to tell...

Today, I go out with my friends and I really enjoy it.... although medyo nakakapagod hehehe...

a story to tell...

Recently, a friend of mine open up her feelings that she's been keeping within these past few months. Let's call her in the name of "angela". There was a guy she likes, let call him in the name of "cream-o". Kinda funny pero that what's she calls him... hehehe....

Lately, she tells me that she's in-love with cream-o na daw... but cream-o doesn't know, kasi siyempre, as a girl, for us, nakakahiya na malaman ng guy na may gusto sa kanila... Know why? kasi magiging advantage yun para sa mga guy(s). She also tells me na, they go out naman pero hindi sila solo, I mean silang dalawa lang, kasama ang ibang friends nila but in a time, they end up being alone nasa likod sila ng mga friends nila tapos kwento kwento... tapos sabi niya, they enjoy each other company naman daw, either thru text or chitchat.... on her feeling, the guy gave a few hints na, that he kinda like her and she gave him a few hint to let him know...

The reason why she doesn't tell me muna kasi she thought na mapipigilan niya ung feelings niya for him pero vise versa ang nangyari the more she loves him right now and she doesn't know what to do... for her kasi, bumabagsak pa rin sa isang point, cream-o doesn't know her feelings for him...

To Angela, My story to tell naman... ^o^

Well Angela, sad to tell we're on the same boat... There's a guy I like, let's call him in the name of "Oreo" =p kinda funny din noh? Well, we met I think 2 years ago... acquaintance lang nun that time, we met each other from our friends lang... that was the time that we were about to watch movie. For that 2 years long, we were really just acquaintance, no more no less kasi we don't text or chat that much naman. it started last year, I didn't realize when I started liking him. The time that I realize is because I tend to become silent and shy when he's with us if may labas kami....

Then it started na madalas na kami magusap ni Oreo, he brighten up my day... we also go out with our friends and end up the two of us at the back talking and chitchatting anything. We enjoy each other company and I also felt that he gave me some hint that he like me and I also gave him a hint that I like him also, but I stopped. But I still treat him the same as a friend and as a guy I like. But same like yours, sad to say that Oreo doesn't know about my feelings for him...

Angela, this is what I am doing right now.... The only thing I can do now is to give him time to realize that I am here loving him... maybe he needs time... Right now, this is what I can say also, "I will wait for him to realize but if he is not really for me, I have to let him go...." And know what Angela, I know I don't have the right to say this kasi ung ibang tao dyan mas maraming beses na ma-feel na main-love at masaktan kayasa sakin. But still I want to tell you this, this is the second time that I have this feeling na ma in-love, it really hurts talaga pero we have to face it, what ever the consequencea are... that's what you called love....

That's life~ Hay... ganyan talaga pag in-love >.<

10 days to go peps, Happy Valentines day~

What a DaY....

hay... what a day... today is quite tiring day and a lot of unexpected things happen... ngayon inaantok while writing this journal... because I want to drop by something here... =)

So here it goes, on my ice skating lesson this afternoon, I accidentally kick my coach T_T with my skate shoes because I was about to fall, gladly hindi ung toepick but quite near there... the problem is I kick near the center bone of the leg which is a BiG 'OucH' so my skating lesson move to next week... Second, when I was going home natapakan ako sa LRT T_T buti na lang hindi takong.... whew~ I am wearing sandals kasi...

But then again, although a quite tiring day I still have fun... like talking with him =p and meet new friends in ice skating like Chester (which I call him KuYa Cheeseter or KuYa Cholo Cheester) and JoHn T., kaya daw JoHn T. kasi daw may JoHn A. na sa figure ice skate, which is true, si John T. kasi sa hockey =p well, they're fun to talk with naman at nakakatawa talaga... specially when Kuya Chester and I were talking, mga chismax sa skating about vicky and others. and ito ang sa lahat na nakakatawa, lahat na kwento na namin tapos hindi pa namin alam ang pangalan ng isa't isa... sabi pa niya "lahat na kwento na natin, age, school tapos di pa natin alam ang pangalan natin ng isa't isa, maghulaan kaya tayo ng pangalan" I was laughing really hard halos nakayuko na ako... hehehehe...

And tomorrow I have Nihongo Class, wish me luck =D

February...

Febraury... another month of the year...

as of the momment, I am still on hunting... good luck for me... and to all people in the world, hope you have a great month this Feburary... ^_^

I really miss him so much, even though we have communication... the problem is... he doesn't know.... oh well, it's really hard to be a girl... hahaha...